Hello, I'm mouse and my best friend used to be vodka. We were inseparable at the time, such fun! Wild nights out, wild nights in..... danger, excitement, strangers, not knowing where I was when I woke up, oh it was all so fantastic.....
Not the case for the last couple of years or so, since I found this Bus. 
Now, we are practically strangers. Don't get me wrong, I still abuse alcohol and use it to self-medicate which completely defeats all of the work I've put in, trying to see my life through sober eyes but that's just how I do things......
Anyway, that's enough about me 
so why not come say hello to the others on the Bus, we're all at different stages of drinking, not drinking or complete abstinence (of the drinking kind!)
No-one on the Bus wears judgy pants, nylon bloomers, leopard skin thongs? Maybe...... I wouldn't like to ask to be honest! But we are all here for the very same reason, we can't (or don't want to) control our drinking like 'normal' people do.
If you'd like to see how this all started, why not have a look HERE and read about one of the most inspirational ladies you'll ever 'know'.
You can also follow the threads, one by one, by clicking on the links on each thread towards the end, leading to the next etc......
See you soon x
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The Brave Babes Battle Bus - Turning Over Autumn Leaves In Search For Our Own Personal Sobriety
Mouseface · 24/09/2012 11:09
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Evening all X
I'm at the end of day 5. I struggled all weekend, but didn't buy wine. The key thing for me is definitely not to have anything in the house.
I'm struggling with a family issue at the moment. Not DH and the kids but my brother. The problem I have is that if I don't back down it could rip my family apart 
I'm not 100% sure why I can't give in over his matter. It doesn't help that I have zero respect for my brother. He is such a "woe is me" person. Goes on about the crap childhood he had. I was there too! He's selfish, puts my mum through hell sometimes.
Anyhow, need to deal with this somehow. Wine won't help. Would help me sleep, but nowt else!! I'm feeling really stressed about it though. I've told rl people about it ad they agree with me. But I wonder if they're doing tht just because they like me. I need to ask for some honest opinions.
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Hi and welcome GilbGeekette I'm new to this bus too but have found the most helpful people on this people. That's amazing that you have been dry for almost 11 years, you must definitely be one very strong lady. So sorry to hear about your hard time, altho you are being there for your children as you feel this is what you need to do as role of mother it must also be awful for you mixed up with feelings you once had for this this man. I have often had that voice saying "one won't hurt" and also had people saying that to me which makes it so hard to resist. I'm currently trying to overcome nearly 20 years of destructive drinking and in my opinion one nearly always does hurt and especially if it's wine. What would you be hoping to be feeling by having one, would you get that from one, would you need another, then another? Sure someone will be along to offer some better support/advice. For me though to try to beat that one won't hurt voice I would keep telling myself it would, and remember times that it has. Good luck
Clutter Im eating a fair amount of chocolate at the moment too!! Ive always been a savoury person rather than a sweet person-I reach for the crisps rather than the chocolate normally!
Hoping it will wear off very soon as I really dont need to put on any more weight as Im already rather large!
GilbGeekette Hi wow 11 years!! well done You WILL win the stare-off with the bottle, if only to keep supporting your kids at this time! Please dont start again after 11 years! The only advice I can give about just one wont hurt voice is that with me once Ive had one that voice sayswell another wont hurt so Im finding it easier not to have that first drink!<img loading="lazy" class="inline-flex mumsnet-emoji" alt="Wink" src="https://www.mumsnet.com/assets/images/mumsnet-emojis/base/wink.png"><img loading="lazy" class="inline-flex mumsnet-emoji" alt="Smile" src="https://www.mumsnet.com/assets/images/mumsnet-emojis/base/smile.png"><br /> im now alcohol free for about a week & a half & feeling rather good about myself-except for the chocolate eating
Clutter Thanks. It's all made harder by the fact that ExH and I didn't have a good relationship, he was a terrible husband, but is a good father. It feels a bit like I'm being expected to ignore all the bad stuff and think of him as a saint now, think that might sound awful, but they're just feelings that don't go away!
Both you and Nat are right about just one hurting. It's a case of 'one is too many, but two isn't nearly enough' with me. I'm back to taking it hour by hour, something I thought I'd left behind a long time ago I'm quite glad I'm less than a week off my 11 year anniversary, the passing of another dry year has always been something that I mark so it makes me more determined not to slip, as it were.
It's really nice to have other people who get what it feels like. DH is very supportive but has such huge levels of self-control that I think he tries, but doesn't understand, the complicated emotional struggles that sometimes happen when you know you can't drink but still want to!
clutter - "one nearly always does hurt"
Another alcohol-free (wine) house. If its there, I'll drink it, so it's just easier not to. Noticed my DH has started cutting down on his beers too, the influence of the Bus reaches far!!
Golden September is that you?
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at Joey Yes it's me! I'm still here, lurking. Took me a while to catch up with the end of the last thread though - busy few days on the bus!
Gilb I agree with Green about it being like smoking. You think 'one won't hurt' but it will wake up the little monster inside you which will then want feeding. It won't be that hungry to start with, but the more you feed it, the hungrier it'll get, and before you know it, it'll be clamouring at you all the time. Eleven years is a fantastic achievement. Don't blow it now, drinking will not help you or your DDs in any way at all - it will make things worse.
Kotinka sorry to read that things have been so bad for you lately. Hope you're through the darkness and out the other side.
Just checking in.
day 4 and the wine is calling. Agree with green about it being like smoking and the little monster. TBH had quit smoking for 6 months and have now started again not many but creeping up, not sure whether to take the miflaw view and concentrate on the alcohol problem or to try and not pick up the first cigarette as well as the first drink.
Mean,t to say big welcome to gilb and 11 years is fantastic
golden I seem to spend a lot of time in the sidecar so try not to get to comfortable it might be a tight squeeze in there soon
koti you sound more positive hope things are on the up.
Control Freak calls, Probably wants his bottom wiped
bye for now.
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