Five years ago I left my boyfriend of three years for my current DP . It was messy he was deverstated I still loved him but fell for DP and thought we were better suited etc . Took me about a year to get over it DP felt guilty we had a tricky few years he was a commitment phobic we broke up a few times but ended up living togther happy and now have DD 18m.
Really cutting this sort but problems started when we had DD she was a terrible baby cried all the time. DP was horrible didn't help and couldn't cope. Basically worse year of my life. Nearly split a number of times and I hated himand fell out of love with him. I can't stress how bad year was had no support from him at all.
Randomly started e mailing ex again after group e mail. Started e mailing each other now and again he is with another woman. When I started back at work became more often. He was great support to me and he is having big problems with the girlfriend so we helped each other. He picked me up from work one day and that was it the feeling all came back.
He says I have always been lo his life and I feel the same but the fall out is massive. Since DP on his last warning has been great father and trying really hard but I'm struggling. Feels to late hard to get feelings back
Met ex a few times obviously and thankfully hard to meet up but he is all I can think of. No one made me feel like ex but I know I threw it away. We are both up happy but there is no guarantee we would be.
Of course my precious DD has the be my priority feel so torn I know what I should do but that's not so easy he is all I think about.
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Bigbouncingbaby · 26/08/2012 21:05
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