Ok, sorry if this is long....met my dp nearly 5 yrs ago, my 2 dc's moved in with him and his dd, we then had our own ds together, he works hard, I stay at home with d's, soon starts nursery.
My stomached is churning typing this, never spoke to anyone. My mum lives 70 miles away, my sis and brother too, I moved over here to be with my dp.
Love him to bits, however, really having problems with his dd, I'm step-mum.
I don't want to go into that, scared he could somehow read this, but my feelings have built up re my dsd for a couple of yrs now, just can't bond with her, not 100 %
She takes pleasure in trying to get my d's (teens) into trouble, is very loud and attention seeking, had trouble setting boundaries, quite soft in beginning but as dp said, treat her as my own, so since then same rules apply etc she has on one occasion mentioned to her gran, I don't do her washing ! I felt cornered as this was put to me while visiting. I never stop in our house, everyone's washing basket is over flowing at some point ! She will grunt, huff and puff, storm upstairs, cry, on occasions if I tell her off for some reason or tidy room etc otherwise, very polite, caring, and does none of the mentioned to her dad, this has over time built up to stop me getting close to her.
I am bankrupt and now don't have my house to rent out anymore, no bank account, money I have I usually ask for off my dp, which 9 times out of 10 is always spent on food, I'm not whining I don't get enough money, but I'm desperate for things, that I put myself last for. I have nothing to call my own, have no independence financially.
I'm so sick of being down most of the time, that not long ago I packed my suitcase and took my ds's, and our little d's to the train station, travelled quite far, got our tickets, but couldn't get on the train. I had arranged for my dsd to be collected by our friend and neighbour, but couldn't let dp go home to find me gone, so I rang to let him know, once I was on the move( didn't want to put my dc's through a confrontation) he was devastated, and talked me round.
So now....still feeling same especially as period is about to raise its ugly head, my dp has noticed my low mood coming back and always worries I'm going to have 'another flip' he described it last night as'if he had hit me, I would always be on my guard he would hit me again' quite true, I've hurt him, big time, and scared the life out of him. He loves me so much, as I do too, I'm scared I'm not going to get any better x
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Twosugarsplease · 26/07/2012 11:31
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