I am hoping that you wise lot might be able to help me with
a) whether this sounds like depression still
b) whether I'm making a big deal out of nothing
c) some reassurance that I'm not the only one going through this
DH is into computers - he works in IT and has a couple of machines at home - we have a mini network here which is great for all my needs and wants IT-wise! However, DH has all this stuff in our converted basement and these days, he prefers to live his whole life donw there. I saw him last night once when he came up for a drink and again when he went to the loo. We passed brief sentences as he was on the stairs back down.
He says everything he needs is down there - he has 2 screens on with web surfing on one and msn chat on the other and then a tv screen with a dvd playing, usually. This is how he spends every evening and every weekend. He will surface now and again at the weekend to play with dd (20 month)
We are 'allowed' down there but this usually makes him moody as we are invading his space, muddling up some pile of crap on the floor or generally getting in the way.
He knows only too well that I don't like never seeing him, but this 'moaning' only makes him stay down there more, apparently, to get away from it.
He has suffered from depression in the past and has been on Prozac but came off it on his own as he reckoned he has treated himself.... He still has god moods and bad moods - he has been particularly stressed with work recently and our lack of money.
He says we have nothing in common and he doens't want to stay upstairs with me as all I do is watch telly (which is hardly true - there is virtually nothing I like to watch these days). I do understand this - before dd, we went out all the time and that was how we got on together: then we would return home and do our own stuff. I understand the PCs are his interest and he likes his own company, but to withdraw himself totally is very selfish. i read on another thread somewhere that someone said 'depression is a very selfish illness' and that certainly rings true.
I know all the things to do to 'tempt' him upstairs - but he has an excuse everytime. Basically, he just does want to be downstairs on his own. There is no give or take at all. He gets very defensive whenever I try to explain how it makes me feel and starts chicking insults about like 'you're boring' 'we never have anything to talk about any more' or just gives it 'i have a headache' 'I feel tired' etc etc
Does this sound like the depression kicking off again or am I using that as an excuse?
Am I making a big deal out of nothing? My family feel I should just leave him to it - after all, he has worked hard all day, he needs to relax, he's not spending money, I know where he is etc etc I know people have it far worse - when I'm not 'having a go' at him for this and just leaving him to his own devices. He sometimes has dinner with me; he is involved dd's bedtime routine. He is not otherwise nasty or violent - he just wants to be left alone. He only gets unpleasant when confronted about this.
Oh, and then he wonders why he comes to bed eventually after an evening of being alone but then doens't get sex. (?!)
And money is an issue - since i gave up work, we barely have enough to cover all the monthly bills. We manage to get a night out together maybe once every couple of months but it's hard when we used to be out nearly every night.
Any thoughts? Sorry s long - tried to make it as brief as possibly but hope I've given enough details to get the picture.
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anyone else with DP with depression - or just any ideas, really....
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catflap · 22/02/2006 13:03
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