Just need a rant....

[TapirBackRider]

I feel rejected that you do not want a non-sexual physical relationship with me. You kiss me twice a day, and unless we have sex, that is as much as you touch me; I get more affection from our children. Blaming me for your inability to achieve/maintain an erection is why I don't want to have sex with you - and despite your protestations of love, if you did love me that much, you'd get yourself sorted out.

I am exasperated at your attempts to control everything. I am an adult, and fully capable of managing myself, despite your best attempts to infer otherwise. I do not need you to clockwatch for me - I've been able to tell the time since I was five.

I LIKE getting ready for things in a rush/at the last minute - the adrenaline boost feels great; I have told you this before, and proven that I leave enough time for unforeseen problems, but because you don't understand it, you reject it, like everything else you 'can't' understand.

I am getting impatient with your constant grumpy/displeased attitude towards me, our children, life in general. Why the fuck can't you just chill out for once?

Life is to be enjoyed, savoured, appreciated and remembered with pleasure, it isn't a chore to be endured.

I am fed up with being judged as 'lacking' by you because I do things differently to you; I'm fed up with having to 'justify' myself time after time about the same goddamn fucking stuff.

Cut it out, or I will explode, and I refuse to be held responsible for the consequences.

[puds11]

rany heard

[puds11]

rant

[puds11]

Hope you feel better for writing it down, maybe it will help you to plan how to move on from this.
Relate?

[Yama]

Rant away.

Sounds like you've clocked his behaviour and stand up to him. I can understand it's wearying though.

[TapirBackRider]

Thanks Puds

Nope have no idea what to do from here - just so bloody angry that it's come to this/I've let it get so bad.

Not sure what's worst tbh, the lack of affection, or never feeling 'good enough'.

[TapirBackRider]

Thanks Yama - he's had a week of me 'toddler taming' him - and so far it's not done a damn thing, apart from him accusing me of having an affair because I don't want sex.

sigh It's too damn hot for this.

[puds11]

I know how you feel. My DP is not affectionate at all except during sex. When i try to kiss him he just looks at me like im mad. I have decided to stop bothering. The rejection has killed me inside.

[SoDesperate]

He sounds like my (hopefully STBX) 'D'H

[ChippingInNeedsCoffee]

TBR :( it sounds thoroughly miserable. Isn't life far too short to be living with someone like that?

[TapirBackRider]

chipping I'm starting to wonder tbh

[TapirBackRider]

Puds it's a killer I know.

I just got called out to work; never been so glad to vet out of the house :(

[TapirBackRider]

Vet? Get! ffs

[oshuk]

Love your name OP. Very clever

[lazilou]

what do you think his letter to you would honestly say?

[TapirBackRider]

His letter to me?

Probably that we don't see enough of each other- he's on day shift, I'm nights; that I don't appreciate the effort he makes around the house; that even though he doesn't like being affectionate I should continue being so towards him.