So. 15 years and finally reached end with DH. He's agreed to pack his bags when he gets out of bed (another 2am bender). I told him if he continued to drink like he does he would have to leave. So that's what he's doing. We're both supposed to be at work today.
We're late forties and have had gregarious lifestyle (travelling all over the world, lots of parties). For me that all changed with first DC 9 years ago, but for him it's still the same. It's as if he wants to live a married life and a single life at the same time. He'll tell me he's on his way home, then next thing it's 9pm and no sign of him. He'll either ignore my calls and texts or send me a text saying he's out for beers. Then he'll turn up in a taxi at midnight and crash into furniture/fall over. It'll be up beers in the pub, then dinner, then private club for more beers, all with his colleagues who are all a good 10 years younger than him. Averaging twice a week that he's really trashed, and maybe another couple of times a week when he knocks back a fair bit. Other three nights he'll 'just' have four or five cans in front of the TV.
Final straw was when I spoke to him at 8pm last night and he told me not to worry because he'd already booked his taxi to pick him up from his club at 1am. I was livid - WTF was he doing booking a cab 6 hours in advance and planning to get trashed?
We've had many many discussions around this and 90% of the time he'll argue that he's just stressed, lots of work issues (which is true) and it's the only way he can wind down. 10% of the time he'll tell me he knows he's got a problem and he won't touch alcohol again, or that he'll get counselling for it. He once agreed to go to AA. Of course none of it ever transpires.
I absolutely can't face talking to anyone in RL yet. There's another mum I know whose DH goes to AA so I'll approach her in a week or two for advice, but that'll be it. Saddest thing is that kids are so used to him being out all the time it'll be days before I have to tell them anything.
If any of you have been there, please drop in a message. Am feeling absolutely bereft. He's a great great great guy when he's not drunk and I'm going to miss that. I just can't carry on living with someone who cares more for alcohol than anything else and who is 'missing' from our marriage pretty much all the time. Is there an upside to any of this?
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alcohol dependancy and end of marriage. hand holding please.
abitbereft · 10/02/2012 10:02
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