My background: been with DP for nearly 4 Years and we have two DC's both under 2 yrs old.
Lately I have been feeling really miserable and unhappy. I am a SAHM, which I love most of the time but I also feel that I would live to have a job, I miss the banter and using my brain, altho I realise that work can be shit sometimes!
The DC's are wonderful but completely full on and exhausting. They have been ill with various bugs recently and I have caught them ad well. So I feel really run down.
My main issue is with DP. I feel that we have lost our closeness and we are now very snappy and snipy with each other. He is drinking a lot more now. He drank a lot at the beginning of our relationship but it has started back up again which I find unsettling. He also confessed to me, whilst I was pregnant with DC2, that he has used cocaine, which really shocked me and tbh, I lost a lot of respect for him. I asked him when he last did it but he said he 'couldn't remember'. He has got a few different sets if mates and he said he took the coke with his football mates, who he still sees and funnily enough, I have never been introduced to.
Basically I'm feeling very insecure and vulnerable, stuck at home with two babies. I have a feeling of impending doom that DP and I will split soon and I'm really scared about how I will cope.
Financially it's not good for me. We are privately renting and I have 5k to my name. He sold his old flat recently and all the proceeds are in his bank account.
I keep bursting into tears. I'm so unhappy. Any advice gratefully received.
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CJ2010 · 18/12/2011 20:45
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