Hi there
I feel a bit silly posting this to be honest, as writing it down highlights how daft I'm probably being. Just wanted to vent I guess.
I was good friends with a girl for years who was going through a particularly rough patch about 3 years ago. I invited her out every weekend (she lived on the outskirts of the city I'd moved to) and made sure she was ok - we were both single so spent a lot of time together. I was worried about her - she hated her job, had no friends and cried a lot when I saw her. We grew close, and I confided in her a lot at the time over how I was still getting over my ex - a long story - but the break up was acrimonious. I moved south, and he then cut contact completely with me which I understood but found it hard, particularly as we were friends before we got together. She used to listen to me go on drunkenly about it and talk me through it too, so we did help each other.
Anyway - I persuaded this girl to go for a two month volunteering job abroad, and helped her make the decision that it was the right thing to do. She loved it, and when she moved back, got a job in the city we used to live in - which she always wanted to move back to - and she said the experience abroad helped her get this job (high demand, few jobs in this city). The same city as my ex.
A month later, the two of them were an item. I found this quite difficult to deal with, although around the same time had met an amazing man, who I'm now married to, and we're expecting our second child. When I voiced my true thoughts to mutual friends (how I wouldn't have gone out with a friend's ex), their response was "What's the problem? You say you're really happy now with someone else". Which I was/am. However, we have a circle of mutual friends who always meet up in our old town, and I have been distancing myself from them all. I have no wish to be friends with either of them really, but don't want a bad atmosphere either so have been friendly enough at weddings etc. I've seen them at.
My problem is, I can't seem to let go of the fact that I still feel a bit aggrieved that my friendships with other people have lapsed a bit because of it. I guess I also haven't ever addressed the fact that it hurt me as much as it did. I thought of them both as people I wanted to have in my life in the future, and was hopeful my ex would still be a good friend eventually. I sent an email to everyone a few weeks ago telling them I was pregnant and it's been ignored by both of them. I thought they might send a line of congratulations. Sorry this is so long, I guess it's something that's always been in the back of my mind - now I'm really happy we're having another baby (and certainly never thought I'd be married to such a wonderful guy) I kind of thought we could all move past what's happened in the past - would've been chuffed if they'd replied - but it's brought back fresh feelings of hurt I suppose. I'm sick of it bugging me! Am I being ridiculous?
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needtogetheadclear · 12/12/2011 17:18
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