Nearly name changed for this as its super embarassing, but anyway.
Basically I left my abusive ex a few months ago and I guess I'm coming to terms with all that happened and is still happenning.
He was obviously abusive verbally, emotionally, financially as well as often very pysically threatening, but I never thought of him as sexually abusive at all. Even when asked this by the police I was still very much 'oh no, never' type of thing.
Anyhoo been thinking about it alot the last few days... I guess my little brain has taken along time to get around to this part..which must sound stupid, and this is exactly how it was:
He rarely initiated sex in a normal situation, it was usually me.
But whenever he was really awful and abusive and threatening to me and got me to the point where I would be really crying he would always then want sex. In fact he'd be very forceful and although I'd keep saying no and was usually still crying, he'd do it anyway :(
The only other times he was really interested was when he was trying to get me to agree to anal sex. Again he'd be very forceful (I never wanted to by the way) but he would eventually stop. But he was always going on about it and that he wanted to put a mirror infront of me to see the pain on my face. I just used to laugh this off thinking he was just joking and didn't really want that ..
Perspective please as I don't really know what I think and I'm trying to compute it.
Thankyou x
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Perspectives please.. didn't want to hijack the other 'is this normal in sexual realtionships' thread.
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babyhammock · 06/10/2011 22:18
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