Hi All.
Some may or may not recall that I moved to London 2 months ago, leaving behind my DP and all my friends and family. I was given lot's of excellent advice on here and I've tried to follow it all, but I still just feel utterly rotten and so up and down sometimes I don't know what to do with myself.
I didn't realise how horrifically lonely living alone would be. Especially as I lived with my DP for 2 years beforehand. Sometimes I feel like I'm going to go out of my mind with sadness when I'm in on my own on a night time. I've joined a few groups but most of the activities are daytime ones so on the night time I'm back in the flat again alone.
I only have 2 friends here, they are lovely but are obviously busy with their lives. Also they aren't into stopping out late on nights out. Whereas I would stay out until 3am given the chance, it means I don't have to go home and be sad.
To add to it all I met a guy I really like and now that's affecting my mental state because I have no idea what's going on with him and me. I would like more than friendship but to be honest I would happily settle for that if needs be. He's really good fun and it's someone to hang around with who is a party person like me. I wanted to ring him yesterday just to speak to him, but my friends were telling me to play it cool so I ended up in even more of a state! (apparently you can't call someone up who you like?) I wish I'd never met him frankly as it's making a hard situation worse. On top of it all I'm really missing my ex DP. Just wish I could wave a magic wand and make our relationship happy again. I know it all makes no sense.
Honestly I'm 32 and I just want to run home to my mam! I couldn't sleep all last night and this morning I feel utterly sick to my stomach. Have others been here and if so how on earth did you get over it? I feel like everyday is a roller coaster of horrific emotions and it's starting to effect me health. I've lost weight, getting loads of stomach upsets and headaches etc.
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Still struggling, sad and homesick, Positive advice needed.
MilkandWine · 22/08/2011 10:55
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