Dumped out of the blue on Saturday after a year.
Spent Saturday night crying and texting him in a pathetic way
Sunday I muddled through and got on with stuff. he came to pick up his things, we had some semblence of closure. Was a bit numb after that. Didn't contact him
Monday I was sort of ok despite this being the first day I woke up and sort of forgot for a second what happened then had that awful realisation moment. Had this feeling of pain/nightmare in the background but kept trying to ignore it. Showered, make up on hair done met friends, did the garden, paid bills, did housework, kept functioning, only snivelled a tiny bit. Again no contact
Today I had that horrible realisation again a few seconds after waking up. I can't stop bloody crying and it's not even 9am yet. I had the option of keeping busy and stuff I could have done like yesterday but I have cancelled everything. Haven't contacted him and I won't either but god this just hurts so much and I just want to stay in bed all day
Why is it now that I start falling apart after functioning ok Sunday and Monday? I thought it would keep improving. That I was managing and was going to be able to keep on the up.
I say functioning, I haven't eaten since Saturday apart from a doughnut on Sunday and some toast yesterday and have barely slept, tossing and turning and having nightmares.
I have had breaks ups before and my method of keeping going and pasting on the smile til the smile becomes real again has always worked, but this is different, so devastating, I just don't know where to start. Please help me if you can :(
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lubeybooby · 10/05/2011 08:49
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