I would be contemplating suicide but I can't do that to DH and DS.
I'm so tired. I haven't had an unbroken night since August last year. DS is still waking to feed twice a night. Everything hurts - back, shoulders, pelvis from SPD that hasn't gone away.
I don't know what to do with someone who wants constant entertainment but can't read and can't talk. The only light I can see at the end of the tunnel is when DS is old enough to go to school, and he's only 8 months old. I feel so sad for him having such a rotten mother.
I haven't any life left beyond work - I've met friends for the evening three times since Christmas, and on two of those evenings DH had to call me to come home because (breast-fed, bottle refusing) DS was howling inconsolably by 10.
DH adores DS, wants me to be happy and doesn't want to listen to me being miserable. So I'm on here. Please, someone, tell me it gets better eventually, or I'm going to end up walking out on a perfectly good marriage and my baby son for my own mental health. If it wasn't for work I'd go completely insane. I've got two weeks' holiday coming up and I'm dreading it.
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Petsville · 24/04/2011 09:18
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