I feel so stupid, I don't know how to cope with these feelings,I can't stop crying and I only have myself to blame.I had a baby boy 2 weeks ago and he's absolutely beautiful,however,it wasn't supposed to be like this,sat alone night after night while the ex,who just moved out a couple of months ago,is doing whatever he wants with whoever he wants...he comes round to see the baby and spent the first week staying here as I'd had a c-section,he comes pretty much every day,except today,he has Friday and Saturday nights off work and surprise,surprise,I don't see him for dust.He texts and rings me all throughout the day as if I'm his best mate or something and I've been really nice and friendly but I can't take it any more,the thought of him with another woman,which is where my head goes on a weekend. The fact I will be stuck indoors on my own for years when I had just got my life in a great routine before I met that git,I have two older children 13yrs and 8 yrs and they go to their Dad's on a regular basis so I always had the opportunity to go out and have a break now I have fucked that up for myself and why was I so stupid to believe what he told me,I was with him for 4 years and he did some really,really stupid things, and he wanted me to have a baby and be a family for so long,he only backed out at the last minute,which leaves me here. I keep looking round thinking how did it come to this??? sorry to ramble I am trying to get it off my chest
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