feeling very hollow and tragic.
Missing my family, just saw them over xmas but weirdly didnt really "see" them, so shattered and stressed.
Felt horrible premonition when hugged mum goodbye. dont know when i will see her again.
horrible row with P today, he said he hates me and ruin everything. apologised later but doesn't obviously think these are as horrible things to say as I do. I was gutted. really felt like my insides are being pulled out I try so hard to make things nice it isn't good to hear I ruin everything
song came on which reminds me of home and I cried so hard I thought my heart was breaking and have felt desperate and hollow ever since.
feeling very unwell and desperately tired. 2nd baby due in spring don't know how i will cope physically or financially. keep thinking how nice it would be to be dead but i can't because i have a little girl and an unborn baby.
thought everything would be easier when xmas over with travelling and everything but it is all worse and i can't see how to make it better. don't know how I feel about P. or he about me.
don't know why I am posting this really just wanted to talk to someone
Mumsnet has not checked the qualifications of anyone posting here. If you need help urgently or expert advice, please see our domestic violence webguide and/or relationships webguide. Many Mumsnetters experiencing domestic abuse have found this thread helpful: Listen up, everybody
Relationships
very blue
nutsandtangerines · 29/12/2010 22:14
Don’t want to miss threads like this?
Weekly
Sign up to our weekly round up and get all the best threads sent straight to your inbox!
Log in to update your newsletter preferences.
You've subscribed!
To comment on this thread you need to create a Mumsnet account.