First post, young/new wife, so really I'm posting bceuase I really lack the life experience to guide me here. Family is all in other areas of the country/out of contact, and friends likewise, or are my DH's. So, here it is.
I really don't fancy my husband. Really. We have been together about 5 years, married for just over one. He has a shit job he always moans about, as if it is really below him (which I agree, it is) yet he has not landed a 'better' job.
He works evenings, and has done for four years, with the promise of getting a day job. He did have one once, but left because he didn't get on with the manager. Since then it's been hurdles such as 'Oh I need to do/revise/apply for x before a job...'.
I am a bit fed up of this, and am very lonely in the evenings. I see him one weeknight and one weekend night/day a week. In contrast, I trained quickly and was very determined to be successful regardless of my relationship (I knew I wanted a career of my own just in case... lots of family divorces have left family women very poor-off.) I now have a permenant full time job that pays well for someone of my age. (24)
Our sex life struggles. I used to be a real go-er, but I find it hard to 'really' enjoy it every time unless I am in quite a mental fantasy, which is hard when your partner finds that frustrating. He can be a bit clumsy, which irks me. I also don't mind men or women, and I think this bothers him. Why I'm not sure - as we are married! It's also hard to 'perform' on one of two set nights in a week. Kills the romance somewhat.
I feel really 'meh' towards him, he wears awful clothes (always has, but now he won't let me buy proper fitting ones anymore - finances) I cut his hair... (ugh), I really think 'yes!' when he's off to work because I'm on my own, and I'm starting to really prefer it to his company.
He's so awkward - wants to be the bread winning man, but realised he isn't to many tears despite him running the budget for the last year. (Significant income differences). I don't know how he hadn't seen it before.
Worst thing - I fancy the pants off of a colleague. Will never go there as I'm quite old fashioned about cheating/affairs, but it highlights how little I feel for DH.
Divorce? I need life experience - is this really the be all and end all? Will he mature with time? He is trying to get a better day job, we can't change the past - wish he had got into action sooner.
Any ideas... just needed to vent. I know I sound like a bitch but it's very lonley here in the evenings with no-one to let steam off with. x
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pfftpfftpfft · 20/12/2010 20:34
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