I am so unhappy and feel I have ruined my life and I just don't know what to do any more.
In May this year I decided I wanted to split up with my DP of 7 years. There are no children involved (yes, I know I shouldn't be on mumsnet as I am childless but I like it!). I had felt restless for around 5 months. Our relationship had become stale, we took each other for granted, had not had sex for 2 years and I was sick and tired of being the boring, responsible one who did all the housework.
I wanted a break from him, from my life, and, at the time, the thought of separating seemed exciting - as though new possibilities would open.
I moved out, got my own place and tried to get on with my life. Whilst I will admit that I love living by myself (it's so nice and CLEAN!) I miss my DP awfully. I feel I made completely the wrong decision, I should have at the very least stayed, talked things through and tried to work it out.
I feel as though I am cracking up. I am in tears all the time thinking of everything I have thrown away. I had a great relationship with his family and miss that too. I just wish more than ANYTHING I could undo it all.
We still spend time together as friends, but ntothing more. I have asked him to give me a second chance but he says that whilst he still feels things for me, he is not sure he can forget the fact I walked away and left him. Maybe he will change his mind - maybe he won't, but until I know for sure I'm in limbo.
I feel so wretched. I want him back, I want us back and I don't know how to go about fixing this mess.
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Please help - I am so sad and it's all my fault
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cumbria81 · 24/10/2010 16:29
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