I'm ok with the fact he's going- it needed to happen. I only posted on a thread the other day that I didn't think I could stay in the marriage just for the childrens sake for much longer.
We've had years of fighting, and now we barely speak. We do need to split. His email was actually really nice- he'll leave, don't worry about money (anymore than we already do), he'll be there for the children 24/7, he loves me, but is rubbish at showing it and we're both miserable.
I agree a split is probably the best thing.
So why am I so fucking angry and upset? Ok, yes I'm angry that he wants to end an (almost) 11 year marriage with a bloody email, but it's more than that. I've tried so hard for years to make this work, and he sends an email and thats it over. But I'm so upset- keep crying and I'm shaking. Why- this is what I wanted.
He doesn't fucking love me- he does nothing to show he loves me.
I feel really sick. Thank god I'm off work today- had he even considered I could read that email at work? What if I hadn't checked my emails? I think my heads going to burst.
My friends been round and given me loads of pratical adviced and let me rant and cry on her. I've phoned my boss to say I'll need to take the boys to school tomorrow (he was meant to but obviously can't if he's not here), so I'll be late in. She was lovely and called him lots of names which helped.
Why do I feel so awful though.
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Dh has emailed me to say he's leaving..
TheInvisibleManDidIt · 28/09/2010 13:18
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