Aaaaarrrggghhh - please humour me and allow me to vent!!??
Another weekend lie-in ruined because of his epic snoring....wakes me up at least twice every weeknight as well when I have to be up at 6 for work. Of course he doesn't do anything like that and I'M the one keeping him awake all the time with MY snoring.......
This feels like the straw that broke the camels back at the moment and feel like telling him to get out of my bed and life when he finally wakes up.
I've recently been posting about me and DP deciding whether to have children or not but hink I knew all along I was being delusional.
These are the main things that are really bugging the living daylights out of me and have done for ages now:
- No communication - at all, about anything not the little things or the big important things.
- We never and I mean never go anywhere unless I organise it and usually pay for it as well because he constantly pleads poverty.
That includes restaurants by the way because hhe's worried that eating out will give him a bad stomach due to their bad hygiene......(hmm)
- He smokes cannabis and has done ever since I met him. Fine, knew that when I got involved with him however, it makes him too tired and disinterested to do much else besides work. He swears blind it doesn't affect him at all - it bloody does, when we've been abroad on holiday and he hasn't had any he's a different character.
- Is glued to his games console every chance he gets and wants to 'chat' about what is happening in virual reality yet clams up when asked to share his thoughts and feelings in he real world.
I could go on some more but just reading back my own list makes me feel pathetic for putting up with it. Trouble is, immediately after thinking, god what a pants situation I feel guilty for even thinking and feeling that way. Sounds like I AM a nutjob......!!
I'll shut up now, but thanks for letting me put this in writing (blush) - it'll help get my head out of the sand it's been stuck in for the last ten years......!