Please please don't judge me I am a total mess right now and really unsure what to do. I have 6dc 1 has sn and 1 has possible sn. I started the mini pill when youngest was a few months old as after the birth my periods became horrendously painful and heavy. I have taken it everyday at the same time and went as far as setting an alarm on my phone.
I had broken up with my dp before youngest was born but we decided to work through our problems so we could come parent our dc. Only 2 are his but he took on responsibility for my older dc as their dad isn't on the scene. Things where going really well and we had spoken about the possibility of trying again. We had a night of talking and 1 thing led to another and I found out I'm pregnant I really don't know how it happened as I never missed taking the pill. He doesn't want anymore kids but said choice is mine what happens next.
My head says I shouldn't go ahead with the pregnancy but I tried to go for a termination once before but I couldn't face going through it.
I have a history of my problems and I'm scared the guilt will send me back to a really bad place and I will end up back to being suicidal again. I haven't been there since I had my dcs and I want to protect them from seeing who I used to be. I found the number for Marie stopes to talk to someone there but not scared to actual use my voice and say things out loud.
I really really don't know what to do any advice would be appreciated.
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