Why cant....

[emmmz1980]

Why cant i bring myself to pack my things for hospital im going in next thursday,and i just dont know why i cant bring myself to do it! The thought of it makes me feel so angry and some times upset.Some days i think,right il do it today,i get up then it just hits me,i get all mad and angry upset and think sod it,i cant do it!Anyone else been like this with anything?

[nickschick]

I paced my bag at 12 pm just as I was leaving the house at 7 am for my plnned c section ....why are you feeling like this?

[emmmz1980]

thats what il prob end up having to do i bet,doing it all at last min coz i have to! i really can not tell you why im feeling like this,as i dont know myself!! its awful i know!!

[emmmz1980]

i too am going for elective c section! im so frightened,is it that maby! now telling me i now mayby have to be put to sleep.

[tessofthedurbervilles]

Aw hun not sure but it is looking like my birth options will be structured and I feel disappointed that I won't get the 'oooh my waters have gone' pleasant surprise when baby decides to come. It can seem so clinical knowing you are entering hospital at a given time for a routine op which will mean you then get your baby.
Maybe thats why you feel this way? For so long you have pictured how your baby will come in to the world and you haven't now got time to adjust to what will actually happen. I hope you are ok xx

[emmmz1980]

i ahd an emergency with my first but although it was scarey i was ok as i knew it was for the best and there wasnt weeks of it goin round in my head thinking about it! it was done there and then! i suppose im frightened of not waking up or something daft as i am a big lass and more risks! but to be honest i dont think this is the reason that i cant bring myself to pack our things!!i just really dont know!!

[nickschick]

emmmz let me pout your mind at rest ...i had emergency c sect in 1993 all choice was taken from me it was literally life or death -

in 1995 I was pregnant again (that bloody sex thing again lol)well this baby was breech so it was reccomended a c section I was supposed to have a spinal block so i could be awake but i was so anxious and scared the anaesthetist said it was better I had G.A so I did.

In 2000 ds3 was due there was no doubt about it a c sect was planned and this time I was determined to stay awake partly cos id never seen a fresh from the womb baby and partly because i like you was afraid i might not wake up!.

I arrived at the hospital at 7.30 was booked in I had a shower and rested on the bed at 9 am i was in theatre -the spinal block was weird at first not painful in any way just like warm pennies dropping down my spine.

I didnt feel a thing ds3 was born I held him straight away we went back to the ward ds3 was snugged up with me- 2 days later I was home.

Dont be scared you can do it and you will feel such a high.

good luck xxxx get that blardy bag packed x