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[MrsMattie]

Didn't know where to post this, so thought I'd put it here.

I've woken up this morning feeling so depressed, tearful and unhappy, and I don't know if it is 'just' pregnancy hormones or the fact that I'm not feeling well generally or what? Just thought it might help to get it all out.

My son is missing nursery this morning because I cannot get him there . I'm 34 weeks pregnant, have increasingly bad SPD, and am in the 3rd week of a heavy headcold/flu that I can't seem to shake. I cannot seem to get a decent night's sleep and I just feel like shit.

My DH and mum have been helping out as much as they can with the nursery run, but they can't do it every day. I have been holding things together (barely) for the last few weeks while feeling increasingly crappy, but this morning something just seems to have snapped. I burst into tears while getting my son ready for nursery, and just feel so desperately tired and unwell and lacking in energy. I looked around my house - we have just about finished having it completely renovated, but are at the stage where everything is still in boxes and a mess and is going to require major effort to organise - and I couldn't stop sobbing. I feel like every small task is a huge mountain to climb and despite having plenty of help from my DH and mum, it is never enough.

God knows what excuse I am going to come up with to the nursery. I feel so guilty and like a shit mum . And I am really worried about how I will cope once the baby is here if this is how I feel now.

[nuclear]

Mrs Mattie

(am regular just name changed recently)

I totally empathise with you - I had to go for a walk last night just to get out the house I felt like I was going to lose it -

I am just over 38 weeks with a toddler and yesterday I felt like the worst mum ever - very snappy and short tempered.

I know that when I have a bad night's sleep the nexy day is SOOOO much harder to get through. Its ironic isn't it .. you will probably feel an awful lot better when little one arrives and your SPD sarts to improve and you get comfy for a decent few hours kip together (that is what I am telling myself anyway ).

Cry when you need too - it sounds like frustration, pregnancy physically holds you back at this stage.

Don't worry about nursery - you have a good enough excuse.

Here's to the last bit of this pregnancy whizzing by !!!!

[happylarry]

mrsmattie, oh honey, hang in there keep your chin up, you are not a bad mum. it sounds like not feeling well is probably driving your emotions....

if there is any way you can get your son to nursery even a bit later will be good for you in terms of giving you a break....

do you know any of the nursery staff well enough that live local to you that would pick up your son en route to work?

treat yourself to some yummy cakes/chocolates and listen to some upbeat music to lift your spirits...

THINGS CAN ONLY GET BETTER!! believe....

[babyinbelly]

Don't worry too much if you can't get DS to nursery. It is not that important (except to give you a break).

I agree with happylarry get lots of nice stuff to make yourself fell better.

It will get better once baby arrives!

[MrsMattie]

Thanks all. Wasn't ignoring this thread, just trying to perk up. unfortunately, i feel worse than ever [

[lauraloola]

I was like this from 35 weeks. I got worse and started avoiding people and would cry all the time. I just wanted to stay in bed all the time.

Once dd was born I was back to normal. I now realise I had pre natal depression.

Im not saying you have it but it could be an option. I would defo speak to your midwife or GP x

[nuclear]

Mrs Mattie,

keep smiling - you are nearly at the end.

x