I could never ever do anything drastic and wouldn't want to as this baby is very wanted and very much 'tried for' but I can't help feeling it was a stupid thing to do and part of me wishes I didn't get pregnant
I have even had moments where I have been so down I wished it would go away.
I feel like shit writing that but I can't tell anyone in rel life and i feel horrible for admitting it when so many wanted babies are lost...
OMG what the hell is going through my mind??
I DO want this baby, so much but Im so tired all the time.
I feel like a shit mother and that everyone thinks Im not going to cope
My mum said to me the other day
'you had better pull your socks up now theres going to be 3... its a whole other ball game'
and that scred the shit out of me and made me feel liek a failure before i have even started!
Plus since getting pregnant everything has gone financially wrong and we are seriously up shit creek without a paddle and I dont know what to do.
I know deep down that all that matters is a happy healthy family but everything seems so crap at the moment that im finding it hard to stay positive
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I really didn't want to do this but everythings just getting too much and I feel so awful ...
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Disenchanted · 08/06/2008 20:14
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