Can I go through all that again?

[Booboobedoo]

I've just watched the 'Make Me A Baby' programme, and when they showed the woman with Hyperemesis I started crying. I didn't stop until the end of the programme.

I found pregnancy so horrendously hard. I was so sick, and that combined with the shock at how awful it was plus the guilt that I resented it so much led to antenatal depression.

(Bit of background: DH had to have eighteen months of grim, painful fertility treatment for us to conceive at all).

I've tried talking to people in RL about it, and I just get vague, confused smiles.

I would love another child - children even - but I really don't know how I'd cope with going through all that whilst looking after DS.

Hve any MNers gone through anything similar? It would be great to hear some positive stories.

I can hear three month old DS snuffling though the baby monitor, and I feel so blessed. It really was worth it, but it was so hard.

[divastrop]

hi booboo.

i had an awful time in all my pregnancies,with AND,although i didnt have hyperemesis.my first 4 weren't planned,but i did think at the start of each 'oh no,i cant do this again'...and it wasnt easy,but i survived,and it was so worth it.

i found the support of MN made my last pregnancy so much more bearable than the others,as well

think of it this way(if you decide you want another)-its 9 months of misery for a lifetime of joy.

[Booboobedoo]

Thanks diva. I'm feeling all teary tonight. I found watching that programme brought it all flooding back.

I can honestly say it was the worst time of my life.

That's a terrible way to feel about the time you were growing your first child, isn't it?

It was really the sickness that was the killer tbh.

[Booboobedoo]

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[Booboobedoo]

bumpity bump

[iliketrees]

Go easy on yourself - difficult pregnancies for whatever reason are traumatic. I think you need to get past the early baby days when you can breathe more easily and think more clearly and reassess whether it is worth having another go. There is such huge expectation on first pregnancies to be wonderful and amazing - lucky if they are, unlucky if they aren't. Mine was not at all (DS1 was stillborn) but I've gone on to have more and it is very hard. Get support from wherever you can find it and don't be too hard on yourself - only people who have been through it can imagine what it was like for you - most people in RL don't have a clue.

[twoplusone]

just wanted to send you cyber hugs Booboobedoo <a class="break-all" href="//[" rel="nofollow noindex" target="_blank">//[]

I have no practical advice for you really, other than each pregnancy is different. I had a bad pg first time with various problems. Was monitered in my second and this one (currently 37+4wks) .. every 4 weeks to make sure things werent happening again. Was told by my consultant in second pg that some women just have a hard time carrying there first, then carry the rest fine.. which was/is the case with me.


Goodluck in what ever youdecide.

[Booboobedoo]

Thanks iliketrees - so sorry for your loss.

That's it, you see. I'm so lucky to have DS. It was miraculous that he was even conceived.

I joined the MN conception boards and got to know all all these women in a similar boat to me, and some of them are still trying to conceive.

I just feel so bloody ungrateful.

I'm babbling now.

[Booboobedoo]

Thanks twoplusone. I am a gibbering wreck this evening.

[twoplusone]

bless you I really do feel for you.
Your ds is very young still there is time.
Tome is a great healer, I would enjoy your ds, then you and your dh can make the right decision for you all.. (sorry not much help really am I..)

Take care hun and goodluck again xxxx
BTW..
I have nearly 8years between my 1st (dd) and 2nd (ds) child.. and there will be 3.1yrs between ds and this lo..