So in September I found out that I am unexpectedly pregnant due to antibiotics messing with my pill and I really haven't been able to come to terms with this yet. I feel like my whole life is over and I will never be able to have fun again, I never wanted kids ever. My boyfriend is so nice and supportive and our families took the news better than expected. Every day I wake up and the realisation that my old life that I loved so much is gone and I literally just feel like I'm suffocating. I tried to have an abortion and was even on the surgery table but I couldn't do it as I feared too much about the moral values of it and if there was a hell that I would be there forever. I wish I did it now as I feel I am in hell anyway, but now feel stuck as I am 19 weeks and all our families know about it so they would know I had an abortion, and my boyfriend gets angry and upset at me even suggesting it again as he is now excited. I don't know what I can do I just want to die or just want this all to go away, I couldn't even do my college course this year as my due date clashes with exams so instead of doing college like I should be I am at home all day every day just pathetically waiting for my boyfriend to finish work. I have been looking everyday for jobs while I don't look too pregnant but have yet to be successful. I hate this life , can someone please help me ?
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