Hi,
I'm new to Mumsnet but have lurked on the forums for years finding titbits of useful info for all sorts :) Now I just found out I'm pregnant with my first and have been in a relationship for almost 4 years. We aren't living together but have been recently looking at places to buy. I am feeling very angry and hurt by my boyfriends reaction to the news. He is freaking out right now about whether we can afford it. I was shocked as he has been saying for months how we need to 'get on with it' as he is 42 and I am 36 and he really wants to have kids. We have been having unprotected sex for ages and he said that if it happens it happens and we'd deal with it. Now he is contradicting himself and says we can't just have it and worry about it later.
He seems to really want it to be perfect and have them privately educated but I argued with him that they don't need to go to a private school when there are good state schools, plus I believe if kids have parents who push them a bit more at home to do homework then they'd grow up to be successful ( apologies for my laid back attitude, my head's a mess right now). He seems hell bent on this and I tell him my friends who have kids all manage and you work it out as you go etc etc. He also mentioned he had a ton of debt and that's a red flag as he's never mentioned it before now. I didn't want to push him on it at the time.
He also doesn't get that I'm 36 and I can't wait another 5 years, I'm not saying women shouldn't have kids past 40 but personally I'd rather not. We are in a stable relationship and we could find a place to live in the next 6 moths I'm sure but all I get are excuses such as wanting to wait until we're settled into a house first. He also told me I need to earn more money as he is on a low wage but mine is lower and we should be on equal money? I said how is it equal if I am the one carrying the baby and giving birth to it? What is he going to sacrifice in this?! I don't think we are particularly low money, combined it must be about £45k a year?
All this though has made me question whether I want to even be with this man? He told me I'd have to give up my art practice that I do alongside my full time day job, but that is my passion! Plus I do ok out of it and I feel like I'm getting more success.
I think his issue is he doesn't want to be the sole bread winner and have me sponging off him and not working. I actually feel like he's deceived me as he was asking to see my monthly cycle chart to see when is the best time to try to conceive. It's like he was playing pretend happy families but now it's real he's scared and wants to run back into his cave.
I actually don't feel scared having this on my own as I know I would regret it if I got rid of it.
I'm hoping he is just in shock and scared but I'm worried his words have damaged our relationship. He's saying he didn't realise until after we had sex that it was a dangerous time. I'm angry that he's trying to blame me for it and he's not taking responsibility for his actions.He's acting like a teenager! He also says though that he is also equally thinking how much he wants to have it
Has anybody else been through something similar? Feeling very lost and confused right now :( I was hoping this would be a happy event in our lives but it might cause us to break up.
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My boyfriend of 4 years reacted badly to pregnancy
micapainter · 17/05/2016 14:52
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