Looking for any advice here please!
I'm 43, a stepmother to my boyfriend's 3 year old and had kind of decided that I was happy with things as they were and that I was probably too old to have a baby anyway. My BF and I recently had sex during ovulation so we talked about it and decided to take the morning after pill.
Alas, that didn't work and I'm now 3 weeks pregnant!
This is a total shock for me. I never saw myself getting pregnant. I never thought it would happen to me. Despite all of my previous feelings about it, I'm now totally torn as to what to do.
There was about a six month period about a year ago when I thought we should try for a baby but my BF changed his mind and I soon arrived at the same decision because looking after his step son can be so tiring and hard work. It's not even me that has to get up in the night when he cries!
So here I am with a baby inside me (or the beginnings of) and suddenly the choice seems so much harder. It's a last chance saloon feeling which makes it much worse.
Is it the hormones that are making me more attached to the idea or do I take the plunge like everyone else seems to and just get on with it? I worry that my own business will suffer, that it will be difficult to juggle step son and our own child, that we won't have any money, that we will have to move house. It's endless.
On the other hand am just i being ruled by fear and once that baby arrives it will seem so natural and bring me so much happiness I would never regret it.
I know this decision is down to me but my mind is changing every hour and I don't want to tell anyone other than my best friend so I'm searching for more advice. Thanks in advance.
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43, pregnant and totally confused.
Bongo100 · 23/04/2016 18:46
I'm 43 and 28w pregnant with my second. DD is 2 and it's been pretty hard work, but it's manageable, it's very real and meaningful (if that makes sense). Now, despite the fact I'm scared shitless about having two - eek - I am massively reassured that life does regain some normality again and that none of the hard stuff lasts forever.
DD is hilarious, brilliant and challenging and the older she gets, the easier and more fulfilling it is. I wouldn't compare how you feel about your stepson - nothing can prepare you for the...everything...the all-consuming new parenthood. The things you think you'll find hard, will not be the things you find hard - and vice versa.
Congrats - whatever you decide 
I found out I was pregnant at 41 and had my ds at 42. It's hard and I don't even have to care for another child. I definitely went through a period of mourning for my former life although I don't regret having my ds, at least I no longer regret it. I'm told time and again that he's an easy baby but it's relative. You've made a tough decision, no doubt about it. I do hope you're content with your choice for your own peace of mind 
Good luck x
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