I'm not sure where is best to post this really.<br><br>I'm due in a few weeks with a new baby and I have started to feel adoption may be the best route to take due to my difficult situation.<br><br>I don't know where to start really! I escaped a violent relationship and have just moved from a refuge into my own place with 3 small children. <br><br>Due to my violent and controlling ex I don't have any contact with family and only a few friends who don't live near by. I have one lovely friend from the refuge who helps me out a lot. <br><br>I didn't plan on getting pregnant and was unable to terminate. <br><br>The reasons I don't think I can cope with the new baby are this:<br><br>1. I am exhausted. I have 3 children age 1,4,7 and I don't get any break. I am pregnant though so I guess this is making me more tired.<br>2. I feel it will negatively impact on my other 3 children's life. I don't have enough hands already and feel someone is always losing out as I physically can't do everything at once.<br>3. I currently walk approximately 5 miles per day doing the school run 3 times (1 in nursery (am) and 1 in sch). This is hard enough as it is, and takes up about 2 hours of the day. How on earth am I going to manage this with 4 of them / breast feeding etc?!<br>4. Money - as I left my ex with nothing but a few clothes I am having to start again from scratch. I have received help with white goods and beds and a sofa but apart from that we have nothing. I have a travel cot for my 1 year old but nothing for the new baby. I have managed to carpet the stairs and 2 small bedrooms but need to save money for the rest of the flooring this month. <br>Because of the new benefit cap I won't receive any further money for the new baby. I'm also worried about further cuts to benefits yet to be announced as I feel it will be a couple of years before I can start thinking about work.<br>Before all this I have always worked since graduation apart from ML but now I have no family support I would find childcare an issue. <br>Anyway I basically feel that I cannot adequately provide for the 3 children I have, let alone another one.<br>My eldest lost his school jumper last week for eg and I cannot afford to replace it until next week. Luckily it's warm so not a big deal but what if it was December and freezing?!<br>5. I just feel like I am drowning quietly and no one seems to notice as obviously I hold it together all the time for the sake of my 3 beautiful children.<br><br>Does anyone know who I should be talking to about all this? I have a support worker from the refuge who visits me but she's a bit clueless to be honest though very, very kind.