So scared, brought back down to earth.

[onefootinthebed]

I had a misscarried in June and l didn't cope well l think, we have tried again and l am now 5 weeks pregnant, l have been trying not to be too excited because l feel really anxious, l am not sleeping and feel like crap due to this and feeling anxious. Last night l wiped and there was a slightly bloody streak so l have waited all night to bleed l havn't slept and feel lie crying.

I know it normal to have a bit of blood but l feel like its just going to happen again.we had a lovely family day yeasterday and we had a lovely evening and l allowed a little bit of hope into my heart and then there was the blood,

How am l gonna get past this l can't be stressing out for the next 8 months?

[RiverRocks]

I feel for you onefoot, and I think the short answer is that you won't get past it.

It'll get easier as you get further on and start to feel baby move (I imagine, I haven't hit that point yet).

for you, the next few weeks are going to be hard.

[leanne963]

Big Big hugs OneFoot i genuinely feel your pain. I am so sorry for your loss. I too miscarried in June and i too and pregnant again, I have been terrified to get too excited incase i go through it again. I have booked a private scan for tomorrow - it is the only thing that will reassure me that i am either on the right path to a healthy pregnancy or once again i have lost a baby.

If you can afford it go private. I only booked the appointment last night and i'm being seen tomorrow. It is worth the peace of mind. I don't think i will stop worrying until a baby is in my arms.

All the best!!

[onefootinthebed]

Thanks, I went to the midwife shop today for a little reassure.i know them well from having my da. Feeling abut calmer this evening. Fingers crossed it all goes well.

[leanne963]

Hope you are ok!!!

[onefootinthebed]

Thanks Leanne hope it goes well tomorrow,I'm going to speak to my dh tomorrow re a private scan. I think he will agree seeing as he found me in tears this morning. Luckily I am only on half day tomorrow then off next week. I think I can just rest then .

[ruth1104]

I second the reassurance of an early scan, although its unlikely you'll get it on nhs theyre not necessarily too expensive. Theres also a very supportive pregnant after miscarriage thread on here. It does get easier but it takes a while! I hated the pressure of feeling that I should be enjoying pregnancy while just being terrified. Glad you're feeling calmer and that you have a mw to contact

[onefootinthebed]

I have just found one for £60, I think I am just going to book it and keep my fingers crossed.