I've been on mumsnet a long time but this is the first time I decided to post. I just don't really know where else to turn to. This is my second pregnancy. Last time around I remember feeling increasingly depressed in the late stage, particularly since I was about a week over due, I was going out of my mind in the last week or so. I blamed boredom for the depressed moods (I don't say depression because while I felt really low I never went to the GP or anything to get diagnosed). And I thought this time with a very active toddler (2.5yrs) I would not have the same problem.
But I'm proven wrong. I've been feeling really down, teary all the time and today really hitting a new low. I don't have any obvious stressors - supportive husband, stable finances, good friends etc. I guess the only thing is that I've cut off contacts with my parents about a year ago. My in-laws spoke to them without me knowing so they know about the pregnancy. I've always had a troubled relationship with my parents and it was a really difficult decision to cut off contacts. I feel like at such a time as the birth, I both wish my mother could be by my side, but also know that she would not be able to give me the emotional support I need. (for last birth, my mum didn't bother to come and help out at all. They came to visit for two weeks when DD1 was 5 months, and locked themselves out of the house while I was out once among other things. They were completely useless in helping and only added stress). While I feel like cutting off contacts with my parents is the only way I could protect my own sanity and protect my children as well, I can't help but feeling really sad that I never did and never will have the mother I wish I had.
I guess the pregnancy and impending birth triggers a lot of those complicated feelings. Maybe that's why I'm feeling really upset.
I feel like perhaps it's time to mention it to my midwife. Anyway thanks to anyone who actually read everything I wrote. I feel better just being able to put some thoughts and feelings down.
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feeling depressed in late pregnancy (36wks)
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lazysleepymummy · 11/04/2014 17:54
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