Very worried!.....I don't feel pregnant anymore :(

[Life22]

Hello Everyone I apologize in advance for how long this post is but I'm about to just give up, the stress is killing me! I just hope my pregnancy is ok and everything will be fine.

I am new to Mumsnet, never joined any sort of chat forum so I thought I would try it out.......I would like to know despite knowing that every woman and pregnancy is different if there are any ladies out there have heard or experienced anything similar to my situation. I am currently pregnant and I am 32 years old. I was pregnant when I was 19 and didn't find out until I was about 8 weeks, was feeling tired, breast tenderness and soreness (not pain) that's it. (unfortunately pregnancy did not work out) So I have sort of an idea of what being pregnant feels like.

I have had irregular periods since I first started menstruating, so I never know when I will get a period, how long they will last, or how bad my pms will be. I also have bad endometreosis since my early 20's and had to have surgery to remove the lesions b/c the pain was so bad, asides that I also have PCOS polycystic ovarian cyst syndrome, so I have cysts rupture frequently, and a retroverted Uterus (drs said it would be very hard for me to become pregnant).....anyways sometimes my pms will give me symptoms very similar to pregnancy symptoms and not have a period for a month or two (not being pregnant). So I am very used to taking home pregnancy tests to r/o if I am pregnant. I was tracking my periods until about 4 mo ago, my phone crashed never backed it up and just got lazy and didn't keep track. Did not have a period this past December or January, and finally had a period last month in February.....problem is b/c I did not keep track I don't remember when it was!!! Ugh makes me angry b/c even though I had not kept track in the past I usually can remember when, but of course this time I don't. Go figure.

I found out that I was pregnant March 16th when I decided to take a home preg test, because prior to March 16th I was acting a little out of control, overly emotional, my breast pain was severe and not every night but a few days after work I felt so exhausted I was going to bed around 7pm (def not normal for me), and had lack of appetite. That was about 1 1/2-2 weeks before March 16th Sunday. That Monday March 17th I called my Gyn and made an app for the next day Tues. March 18th.

My app. on Tues. March 18th with my Gyn confirm that I was pregnant via urine test, and drew my blood for HCG and progestrone level, and performed and US. They saw nothing on the US and said I was just probably to early in the pregnancy to see anything. By this time my breast still hurt pretty bad but not like the week before, horrid short-term memory loss and I was starting to have nausea only if I didn't eat, heartburn started badly. So they asked me to return in two days to repeat my HCG level, and to call if I had any pain, dizzinesss or bleeding (in early pregnancy they always take precautions to r/o ectopic pregnancy).

My 2nd app on Thurs. March 20th I got my HCG levels from my first app. HCG was 220 and progestrone 29 which although the HCG level is low, the progesterone is very good. They drew some more blood, and scheduled me with an ob doctor the following day. By this time hunger is kicking in, headaches and severe very severe hot flashes, and night sweats.

My 3rd app Fri. March 21st at the ob they drew more bloodwork, repeated and US and a possible sac was seen in my uterus, but they could still not r/o ectopic pregnancy and still at risk for miscarriage b/c I'm very early I was told. As far as I am concerned if indeed there is a "possible sac" that means it's not ectopic if they saw it in the uterus. I am so confused! My second HCG results from Thurs. were 503 it a little more than doubled so that was good news, but the doctor's were still nervous and kept checking on me even throughout the weekend asked me to come in on Monday March 24th for repeat HCG level and had made an app with a 2nd ob that was highly recommended March 25th. Throughout the weekend I had terrible mood swings and hot flashes started subsiding Sunday to Monday.

Today March 25th The hot flashes are gone, no nausea, no heartburn, no headaches, no appetite, my breast pain has subsided to almost feeling normal, not fatigued or tired. Just my normal tiredness from work, and I am feeling depressed. When I went to see the new Dr. today for the first time everyone seemed bothered that I was there because they don't like to see patients if they don't have HCG results at around 2000, which I understand why......well then why did they schedule me? At first they did not want to do an US b/c they said there was no reason too if I was that early.....fine I understand that's rational. After I explained my situation she changed her mind and decided to go ahead and order an US. Had it done, the tech said that she saw a possible sac and a cyst on my right ovary. The doctor then told me that without my new HCG results from yesterday she can't properly read the US. Makes sense I guess. So..................

My worries are I don't feel pregnant as is I don't have any symptoms, except very mild breast aching which is nearly not what it has been previously.....and my doctor keeps calling me to see how I am feeling if I am having cramping, bleeding etc and to get an update on what the new dr. today had reported. They have just made me really scared and paranoid that they kind of know what's going on and are not telling me b/c they are not 100% sure......making me worry! I have not recieved new results yet and I just want to throw my hands in the air and say I give up whatever......trying not to have a negative attitude, but at this point I am just feeling down, confused, hopeless and fearful that maybe I may have had a miscarriage.

Any thoughts, similar experiences, or advice from anyone? Sorry I know this was long and thank you for those who read, I appreciate it!

[ithoughtofitfirst]

Seems like one of those annoying 'time will tell' situations... which doesn't help you right now.

My symptoms have been very mild this pregnancy which worried me. I hope that helps. Every pregnancy is so different but it doesn't stop us from worrying does it?!

I've got everything crossed for you, i hope you feel more relaxed and reassured soon xx

[willitbe]

Symptoms come and go in early pregnancy, try not to worry. Hopefully you will get reassurance soon.

[EssexGirlLottie]

Sounds like you have had a stressful time. I haven't had any of those previous concerns but i certainly thought i would know if i was pregnant...i didn't. I did a home pg test and it came up positive - 2-3 weeks pregnant. I didn't have any symptoms whatsoever until 8 weeks. So, as hard as it is, try not to worry about the changes in your symptoms. All the rest of it with the blood tests, US etc - i guess the issue is with most of us, they don't bother with any of these until week 12. Every other pg woman might go through the same but we're just not aware. Are you in the UK? I'm sure we'd all be complaining if they weren't following you up properly, but this almost sounds as if they're doing too much too soon. As the previous post said, time will tell.
Good luck