Not the worst thing you could have done but while you feel so crap damage the cigarettes so you can't smoke anymore and tell your partner to stop being a knob head and do not allow him to piss you off again. Come up with something else to ease the stress of him being a prat.
I didn't even realise what I had done until I had calmed down. I just feel so rubbish.
the argument wasn't even that bad. just about his nan wanting to stay when the baby is here in December. there is no room in our tiny flat for her and I don't want her here. apparently having her stay in a hotel is a selfish suggestion and I'm only thinking of myself.
I know it's only 3 in 17 weeks and it's not the end of the world, but there is so much pressure on me to be perfect that this just seems like the worst thing I could do.
I gave them to a homeless man while I was walking home. so least I have no more.
can't tell my oh about it as he will go mental. I'm now just sitting in town on my own feeling miserable.
I was a smoker til I found out I was pregnant, and the day I found out I smoked one more and then through the pack away. I know how guilty you must feel, but don't worry. Your baby will be fine. Personally I would go home, brush my teeth and not mention it. And ideally don't do it again!
I know. I was right in the argument. I tthink its made me feel so miserable because I dont really have a close family and feel a bit overwhelmed with his massive close family. his mum rings me every day to see how baby is doing ffs.
I've now got a 2 mile walk home in this horrible heat and will have to face oh when I get back. I just want some time to myself
oh bless you, that sounds like a nightmare re his mum!
Perhaps when you've calmed down a bit you can have a chat with him about the pressure you feel you're under. he should support you and his mum needs to back off. if my mum did that I'd have words, never mind my DPs mum!
He is waiting for you to beg him to come home. Don't. Let him have the space he says he needs and carry on with your life and getting ready for your baby to come. Assume you are going to be a single mum and start working on your self esteem so that if he does come back you can tell him to fuck off and have him back 100% on YOUR terms.