So now I?m 12 weeks? as soon as i found out i was pregnant i was in agony? it just wasn?t what i planned for myself? i also knew an abortion would be hard for me. Now i?m nowhere nearer a decision? its killing me? ive tried everything? counselling? meditation? reiki?long long walks? talking to death about it with lots of people? score cards? gain loss analysis!?.
I?m 27, I?m not married but have been with my partner 2 years. He is being really supportive. He desperately wants to keep it and thats making the decision harder.
I find myself today? knowing that i can support a child.. and even seeing some positivity towards the idea of starting a family? but there is also such a massive part of me that just doesn?t want it (internally screaming at the idea) and can?t accept it?i keep booking appointments at the centre and can never go through with them? just part of me can?t do it? especially when i know it would break my partner so much. However, as soon as the appointment time has gone and I have failed to go again (ive booked at least 4 times now)?i hate myself for not being brave enough to go through with it? so i go home and cry some more and sugger from my lack of indecision?
someone please help me shed some light!!!!!
xxx
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Pregnant and not sure i want to be....need some help PLEASE!
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tobe1 · 12/03/2011 21:01
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