fed up rant

[angels1]

This has been eating me up for some time. I know I'm incredibly lucky to be pg and I wouldn't change it for the world, but I'm just struggling through my pg a bit.

I'm fed up of still feeling sick at 26 weeks most days. I'm fed up of people looking at me disbelievingly when I tell them this; having only 2 outfits to wear; of the fact that DH only has to look at me in an odd way and I burst into tears; of the fact that I haven't managed a trip out of the house for longer than 3 hours in over 5 months as I feel so rubbish; that I get tired so quickly so I have to pace everything I do; that I never get anything done becuase of this; that I have too much to do that never gets done; that I still struggle to eat lots of foods; that I have to eat pretty much every couple of hours; that becuase of this I've put on far too much weight and feel an utter hippo; that I'm stuck in the same 4 walls for most of the day every day as I can't manage to do much; that I can't sleep well; that if I walk further than 100m I get really bad ligament pain; that I have a bad back so normal activities like emptying the dishwasher are difficult; that I feel like a terrible wife to DH as I'm barely capable of being an operating person by the time he gets home from work; that I've been signed off work practically my entire pregnancy; that I wish I could work I just don't feel up to it; that I get lonely; that my anxiety levels have gone through the roof; that I have almost constant indegestion/reflux; that I need the loo all the blooming time; that none of my shoes fit as my feet have swollen so much; that I haven't felt my normal self since getting bfp; that I feel like my body is walking through syrup; that I can't stop worrying about birth and how I'll cope as a mother; that I should be blooming but feel as far away from blooming as possible; that things are only going to get harder from here on in as I get to the 3rd trimester.

I am, however, extremely grateful to have a lovely baby growing inside of me.

I know these are all quite small things, it's just the general build up of everything.

I feel a bit better now I've got it off my chest though thanks.

[anonacfr]

You poor thing. I sympathise. I was sick for 6 months with my first and spent most of my pregnancy lying on the sofa.
I'm expecting n.3 right now and am still waiting for the blooming feeling.

Try to pamper yourself as much as possible- watch loads of DVDs, get plenty of rest and don't worry about being a good wife!!!! You're growing a baby you have to look after yourself.

Take care!

[pinkyp]

Sending you lots of sympathy! I feel the same i'm forever moaning/crying to dh - i look like a hippo too and think why the hell is he still here as i look a right tramp. I prob wouldnt leave the house if it wasnt for my little boy having nursery everyday too ((hugs))

[8rubberduckies]

So, so sorry you are feeling crap Angels, I too, am feeling awful at the moment, although I am only 8 weeks gone I can sympathise with you, and experienced the limitations back pain can bring throughout my first pregnancy (I also had spd).

I would strongly recommend speaking to your midwife or GP, as you sound quite down and anxious, maybe you're suffering from a bit of antenatal depression? Oh, and most importantly, be kind to yourself

[bluebeach]

angels its good to have a good old moan sometimes, though I am sorry you are feeling so rotten.
Don't beat yourself up and remember to be kind to yourself! There's nothing wrong with having a good old wallow in front of the TV with some hot chocolate (if sickness allows).

I work from home, which is a god send though I have to say, with my ever dwindling wardrobe (I'm 24 weeks) I tend to spend the day in my pyjama's and have become a bit of an agoraphobe! I am forcing myself to go to a pregnancy evening tonight mainly because they have bra fittings and I am still trying to get away with my 36 B cup bra's despite my boobs having put on about a stone (each by the feel of things)!

I hope you feel better soon, but anyway here is one big hippo hug from me to you ((((())))))

[angels1]

Thank you for making me feel a bit better. I know what I'm going through isn't as bad as some people.

8rubberduckies I already spoke to mw about this and she is keeping an eye on me as I suspect she thinks I do have a bit of the antenatal depression.

bluebeach I hope the bra fitting went well. I became a complete agorophobe in first trimester and now, although I can go out, I'm still limited in what I can achieve.

[Violet5]

Hi angels1, i have terrible ligament pain too (started at about 16 weeks, i'm 36 weeks now) and i have painful SPD.
Also most my shoes/boots don't fit now due to swollen feet and i'm rotating 3 outfits...i don't have a winter coat that fastens or fits either.
I get so frustrated at not being able to do things at a normal pace, i've got 5 children and it drives me mad some days trying to keep on top of the laundry etc and i keep having to ask for help.

To cheer myself up i've distracted myself with getting things sorted for baby arriving and xmas shopping etc. I also had a maternity photograph done, not to show anyone, just to keep, so i can remember being so huge
I've also deliberately spent no money really on myself and i'm saving some for after baby so i can go out and treat myself to a few new bits so i feel better about myself after the birth.

At least when you get to the final trimester you'll just be striking the weeks of the calendar and getting much closer to meeting your baby and getting your body back.

Take care x

[angels1]

thanks violet. Don't know how you're managing to run a house with 5 children and spd - sounds very tiring. At least you only have a month to go - a christmas time baby - same as me as I was born the week before christmas :)

I would love the cheer myself up organising baby clothes/room but we are moving next month, so everything is slowly getting packed away. Hopefully once I'm moved and settled I might feel a bit better - I think the whole moving thing is stressing me out too.

[Violet5]

Oh, i moved house with a 1 day old baby once (was supposed to move the day he came !), it was stressy. That said a friend came to stay for a couple of days and bought us take aways and helped with the unpacking which was really nice of her.
Although moving was stressful it was quite exciting once we were in our new house and i could start getting the place how i wanted it. Once you're moved you can start getting settled like you said and hopefully that might help a little bit.
Good luck with everything x