My baby is 3 weeks old, he is my first child.. And my last.
I never thought i would be writing this, but i feel like the worst Mother in the world. My Husband works away too provide for our family, so i am limited to help. I dread the thought of being alone with my baby, i am constantly watching the clock counting down the hours until i will see a member of my family or a friend.
I feel like i am going insane, i find myself just staring into space and completely drowning out all other sounds around me, usually my babies cries.
I have not, and never will hurt my baby. But i'd be lying if i said i had never thought about it. When i come to the realisation of what thought has just gone through my mind i burst out crying and feel worthless, i feel so selfish. Why have i been blessed with such an amazing child when there are people out there who would give there life for what i have. Which is why i feel so awful about the way i'm feeling.
I never ever thought i would feel this way, i thought motherhood would come naturally too me, i was wrong.
My boy deserves someone so much better than me as a Mother, and it kills me to say that.
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I feel like a bad Mother.
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MrsMxo · 15/08/2016 11:30
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