yes me again....sorry.....
my mum and dad divorced when I was very little. The last time I saw him I was 5, standing at the school gates and him telling me that he loved me......after that my mum took me away and kept moving me around to avoid him finding us.....
I so desperatly wanted to see my dad and finally, 9 years later, when I was 14, I got my mum to agree to letting me see him. The weekend I was going to go and see him, he died......had a heart attack......I never got to see him....
I think about him every day and I sobbed my heart out on my wedding day cos he wasn't their to give me away.....I know that him and my DH would have got on so well.
My children are asking me about my dad now....they can't understand why they haven't got 2 grandads like a lot of other children.
I have always wondered if he still loved me or ever gave up hope of ever seeing me again.......
I know so little about him and the only thing I have is a picture of me and him taken when I was 3. Its the only one in existence and I have had it copied numerous times in case something should ever happen to the original........I would never forgive myself.......
Nobody in the family can tell me what I want to know.....my own mother would never talk to me about him without harsh words.....
I am not religious in any way....but do believe that there is something beyond....
I have thought about going to see a medium, but tbh, I am to scared......I have never done anything like that before.
I miss him terribly, even though I hardly knew him.....I would love some sense of closure....the first and last time I saw him for so long was in a coffin.....
Can anyone help?
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Titania · 07/11/2004 13:42
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