My ds is 8mo, I have been back at work full time since he was 6mo. I am a teacher, and a head of department in a secondary school.
I have suffered depression in past and been signed off with 2 significant periods of absence (about 6 weeks). I was diagnosed with PND and am on 60mg of Citalopram. I have an appointment with psych and end of may.
I have already had two periods (each 2 days) sick since returning. I am off this week as I had chest pains and significant sinisitus. But also as I felt so exhausted I couldn't go on.
I tried to work out if I could go part time, but dh says we can't afford it. He is now upset/angry as he feels he can't provide so that I can work part time.
I honestly feel like the best for everyone is for me to disappear. I would miss my ds so much, but I am not much good to him.
We can't remortgage as we are in negative equity, and we have a loan for home improvements that we need to cover.
I would happily rent, cut back etc, but not sure we would be able to sell house to cover mortgage.
God I am such a mess.
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I can't cope being full-time working mum, I am cracking up, but don't think there is any other way
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roslily · 11/05/2010 17:22
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