I haven't posted in quite a while but am struggling at the moment.
My DS is now 17 months and I am a stay at home Dad while my SO works hard to pay the bills.
I'm not coping too well right now. I find my DS very demanding (normal I know). He seems to cry and scream an awful lot and I am struggling to control my temper. I don't seem to cope too well with lack of sleep and that makes me have little patience.
DS wakes up every morning anytime between 4.30am and 6am (today was 4.30am). He sometimes will sleep through to 6.30-7am but that's not very often). I've tried everything to get him to sleep later but it doesn't work.
Anyway, back to me being a rubbish Dad. For example, My wife was away last night on business and this morning, after his morning nap, DS was sat with me and I removed his dummy as I don't want him to have his dummy unless it's bed time or he's very tired etc. He screamed his head off for about 5 minutes (felt like forever) and I just lost it. I shouted at him at the top of my voice to shut up and stop screaming. This of course made him scream even more and I shouted again (more at myself this time) but I swore too. DS continued to scream for another 5/10 minutes non stop. I felt bad about my shouting but could feel my temper rising more so decided it was best to leave the room and count to 20. I went up to my bedroom in a rage and slammed the bedroom door shut hard. Whilst in my bedroom, I reflected on my behaviour and nearly burst into tears at the thought of how awful I'd been to my own son.
I then thought about what the neighbours might have heard and that they were probably phoning social services to report me for abusing my son!
I just feel really bad about the way I have so little patience lately. I'm soo tired all the time. I've shouted at my son a quite a few times before too.
I'm fortunate in that he has two wonderful sets of grandparents who give me a break once or twice a week. How crap am I that even then I can't sometimes cope?
I need to change the way I react before it's too late and damage is done emotionally. At the moment I feel I'm failing miserably at being a good father.
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I'm a bad stay at home Dad :(
BritishBeef · 31/01/2009 11:55
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