I suffering with anxiety due to fear about the future and regret because I caused it. I regret having a child (who's 6 now) with my ex who I really don't like I worry how we'll co-parent. I can't get him out of my head. He isn't a really bad guy but he and his whole family really look down on me and my background and have said some cruel things. And now we have a child together. But she is a carbon copy of him - showing some really tomboy geeky qualities which are just like him and his elder daughter, a strong family trait on his side (nothing like me or my family) and I hate that. My day is a roller coaster of emotions. If she chooses something similar to his nature I'm gutted. If it's similar to me I'm happy. That can happen 20 times a day. I'm so unhappy - I obsess about it. I believe that because of such strong similarity that my role in her life will just become insignificant. I really really regret having her at this point. I feel so so miserable.
How do I learn to accept this situation, be a good mother and enjoy my life?