Nightmare

[Keza7]

Hello,

My baby is 4 months old & I love him more than anything but last night I had the worlds worst night mare & I can't relax..

I dreamt I was with my mum, and for some reason I had to kill my baby - which in the dream was perfectly normal! I stabbed him in the side, he didn't bleed, he just looked at me. & I handed him to my mum.

He started to whimper and we both knew it's because the pain was kicking in so I ran to get him calpol & neurofen and my mum gave him a bottle! - what???

He didn't die, but I woke up and I just feel so weird & sad. What was that all about?? I know you have weird dreams when being pregnant - I had a couple, but nothing like this.

I can't get the image of his little face looking at me whilst I done something so awful! What is wrong with me :'(

[BeccaMumsnet]

Hi Keza7 - we're going to pop this over to our Parenting topic, for you to get better support and advice.

All the best

[lemon101]

oh luv, that is just generalised parenting anxiety peeking through your subconsciousness. Basically your brain has selected the most horrifying images it could - precisely because they are horrifying! I would just forgive yourself (it didn't actually happen and obviously ever will) and let it go!

I can imagine how you feel though.

[TealLove]

It's nothing to worry about just your brain cleaning out all the trash.
Please don't give it another thought.

[ByThePrickingOfMyThumbs]

Nothing is wrong with you.

You had a nightmare. They are awful and frightening when they are happening but that's all they are.

Forget about it.