Baby blues... I think

[WillYuleDoTheFandango]

Not sure if I'm in the right place or if it should be in pregnancy?

I'm pretty sure this is all normal and just the baby blues, but I need to get it all out. I have discussed it with my midwife too but didn't go into specifically why I'm so upset.

I'm 12 days postpartum and am spending a good couple of hours every day crying. It's worse in the evenings but can strike at any time. I've had quite a hard time feeding DS as he's 80% tongue tied and struggled to suck/latch. Had to give up breast feeding as I was making myself ill as I never got round to eating. I think I've come to terms with that though now.

Mainly I cry because I'm happy - I am ridiculously in love with my new baby and the way that DP handled everything in the delivery suite/ever since has made me realise quite how much I love him too. I keep having little panics about how much I'll miss him when he's at work and how I'll cope when I have to go back to work (in a years time so completely unreasonable).

I also cry for my time being pregnant, experiencing labour for the first time and for my time in hospital as A new mum when it was all about the new baby and life just went away. I didn't have an easy pregnancy (morning sickness/palpitations/diabetes) or labour and I know I'm looking back with rose-tinted glasses on. I wouldn't swap my baby for all the world but I'm just sad that it's all over and feel like nothing will ever feel so special again.

I get so sad reading the pregnancy threads as the ladies are uncomfortable and are wishing away their last weeks and I loved my last weeks with my bug bump and my squirmy baby.

I know this all seems very self indulgent and I'm so lucky but I just can't seem to pull myself together and focus in everything I have.

Is this a common way to feel? Is there an end in sight?

[Mytwobeautifulgirls]

ahh I felt exactly the same very teary about everything send I didn't get time to eat lost my baby weight ever so quickly. in time u will feel so much happier and not so sad. my dd is now 3 months and all the crying has passed. although the pregnancy blues r still very much here and I can't wait to be pregnant again even though my pregnancy was horrendous very ill. palpitations low bp and very bad migraines. I was in and out of hospital but I wouldn't change it for the world and can't wait to do it again.
I think it is only natural to count down gte weeks whilst pregnant as u r so excited to meet your new baby. but looking back if only u could have them weeks back and feel your baby move around and the hiccups. but u need to enjoy your baby as much as u can now whilst they r small they grow so fast these days r special enjoy.!!!

[WillYuleDoTheFandango]

That's exactly how I feel. I always knew I wanted 2 but now I can't imagine only doing this once more. I am enjoying him as much as possible and can't believe how beautiful he is!

[Mytwobeautifulgirls]

it's amazing isn't it sometimes I could just stare at her all day. did your hubby get paternity leave? mine took 4 weeks but when they go back to work it is nice to be able to find your own routine and way of doing things.

it does get easier. have things to look forward too that Helps too.

did u have a lot of visitors come round. I did I had 10 plus 4 kids gte day I cane out of hospital that's was the icing on the cake for me.

[WillYuleDoTheFandango]

Yep I came out of hospital on 18th and it's obviously been Christmas so everyone is off and demanding to see the baby. I've felt so protective and have had to stop myself from snatching him out of people's arms when they were hogging him. Also people don't take the hint to leave. Last Friday we ended up cancelling all the afternoon visitors as I couldn't take any more.

DP's been fantastic. He's had 2.5 weeks off, back on 2nd jan. he works long hours though so we're really going to miss him.

[Mytwobeautifulgirls]

yep u two definitely need your own space I understand family and friends are excited to see the new edition but they need to understand u guys need time to bond and get to know your new baby.
it frustrated me so much I was upstairs crying I then rudely had a bath. I couldn't stand it any longer to make matters worse mtg kitchen was a tip. every single plate bowel cup glass knife fork was out and dirty I was so pissed off. But it's a novelty that soon wears off. thank god!!!
I still am very protective over her and am watching like a hawk but think it's only natural for a mother.
ahh u will be fine when Dh goes back to work. I know it's hard at first. is this your first baby? I had my daughter who is 8 with me so I suppose I never really thought about being on my own she is a great help but the time will fly past as your day seems LIke a schedule feeding changing feeding changing doing a bit of house working then feeding again. so u don't really look at the time before u know it he will be back hone with u both.

[needsadviceplease]

I felt like that. It passed quite quickly in some ways but it took much longer for me to not feel painfully jealous of pregnant women and even now (8mo) I'm not always in the mood to hear other people's birth stories. Pg and birth is definitely over for me though, he's my only and last baby.

Enjoy your lovely baby. I remember feeling v stressed by the importance of 'enjoying my newborn', like he was growing too quickly and I couldn't keep up. It doesn't work like that though. I was enjoying him just fine and I still do.

[WillYuleDoTheFandango]

Yep he's my first but not my last I think I need to get out and about, find some groups and meet some other mums. This bit between Christmas and new year is always a bit rubbish without baby blues in the mix.

I've not been out so not seen a pregnant person yet needsadvice. Lets hope I don't claw their eyes out!