I feel awful about this. I'm going to try and be honest in this post and it will probably make me sound awful. I don't cope well with stress and I'm a very introverted person. I find being a mother pretty overwhelming and find my dc pretty irritating most of the time . I think this sometimes comes across to them. I love them, very much and want them to be happy. I have a dd and a ds (7 and 4) and they bicker and fight constantly it seems. I have recently gone back to university and am still struggling to adapt to that change, so am extra stressed atm. My dd in particular I find difficult - she's very like me and, horribly, I think it makes me harder on her. She is very sensitive and doesn't cope well with change - she's struggled with me not being around and has not taken well to moving into ks2 in school. I try to be sympathetic and helpful but the truth is I have hardly any reserves of energy to give her.
I constantly beat myself up for being a bad parent and blame myself for every bad bit of their behaviour. They argue = my fault for not giving them enough attention. My dd struggles to cope and doesn't want to tell me her worries = my fault because she's not only inherited my personality but she senses I don't know how to make things better for her. My dd has adopted a horrible hectoring disdainful tone when she talks to her little brother and I feel so ashamed because I think she's heard it from me.
I don't know what to do, I feel my relationship with my dc is damaged.
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Peggotty · 20/12/2012 19:41
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