Hi all
I've dipped in and out of this part of Mumsnet but never posted before. I am sorry if this sort of thing has been posted before, but I would love some reassurance that having an only child is okay.
My DH and I are very lucky that we have a beautiful daughter, now 2 years old. His sperm count is zero but, amazingly, she is biologically his thanks to some very clever surgeons, consultants and embryologists. We had 3 cycles of IVF (ICSI) and he had 2 surgical sperm retrievals. I miscarried twins. We had to pay for our final cycle (the one that gave us our daughter) and because our case is complicated I think we spent nearly £10k.
Anyway, we have one frozen embryo and went to the clinic today. They advised that it might be worth doing a fresh cycle first if we can afford it because (a) it may give another embryo to freeze, and given my age - 39 next week - they would consider putting 2 back or at least having another in reserve in case the first one didn't thaw properly and (b) if we were going to do a fresh cycle at all - and I had considered it as a "one last go" type thing if the frozen cycle were to fail - it would be better to do it sooner rather than later because of my age.
DH is quite cautious with money and (for my sins) I am not. I have no savings because it all went into the last round of IVF. He has about £5-6K.
A fresh cycle of IVF would be about £5k, I think. A frozen is more like £1200 and we can afford that. But DH doesn't want to spend the money on a fresh cycle, only a frozen one. He does consider it "our" money but he doesn't want to spend it on IVF. He wants it in the bank in case anything happens to either of us and we can't work. I can understand why - it is not about him not wanting to spend on IVF at all (we used my money for IVF because we used his money for the house - we had a lot of building work done and he paid for most of it; it cost more than the IVF so I don't feel as though he doesn't contribute financially - he probably contributes more than I do but he wants the money in reserve in case either of us loses our jobs/health etc).
So it looks like for financial reasons we may have to disregard the clinic's advice and just do the frozen cycle. If it doesn't work (30% success rate), then our DD will be an only.
I feel sad about this because I really enjoyed growing up with my sister - Christmases, holidays etc. And now we are adults I cannot imagine my life without her. We go on holiday together sometimes. We will be there for each other when the dreaded day comes that our parents are no longer with us.
I guess I want all of that for my daughter and am feeling really sad that I may not be able to give her that. Oddly enough if I only had myself to consider, I would be happy with my lot - I don't "need" another child...I have all I need. But I worry about her. So I am hoping people on here can give me a bit of perspective....
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cinnamongirl1976 · 25/02/2015 15:24
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