There is a bit of a back story so please bear with me.
Myself and DH have one DD who is nearly 14. She's not biologically DD's. We met when she was 5. She has no contact with bio father and calls DH Dad. Since we met we've been trying to conceive. I've had 6 miscarriages. Two of which were last year, both ectopic and resulted in me losing both tubes. I had undiagnosed hypothyroid which caused the earlier mcs and then pure bad luck (and damaged tubes from suspected infection) means that now our only hope is IVF. That's ok for us but here is the dilemma.
We're not greatly enthusiastic about it. TTC was always done in a relaxed way i.e if it happens great if it doesn't we won't get too caught up in it. I'm not sure if it's because we're just too lazy and settled or whether we think a new baby will disrupt the nice routine we've got going. I'm no sure if I'm ok with the idea of not having another - maybe it's a result of all the mcs or the fact that I was a single parent for the first 5 years of DD's life and it was horridly difficult. What I'm terrified of is getting to 45 and badly regretting not having a bio child of our own. DH is an only child so basically his family blood line stops with him. If we don't have a baby together his lineage stops. It makes me feel really sad. I love the idea of us having a baby together but I'm afraid that my judgement is being clouded by the romantic idea of making a baby together.
Sorry for the rambly post. We're due to meet with an IVF doctor in March to discuss options. I don't want to waste the doctors time, our time and money if we're just stuck on a notion rather than on a longing. Opinions greatly received.
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Cadastre · 07/01/2015 10:38
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