Holy mother of CRAP..this was defo NOT part of my plans...what the jeff do i do??

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nosleepwithworry Wed 06-Jun-12 10:52:19

I had my 7th mcs about 9 weeks ago (i think, i didnt write any dates down, have little memory of about 2 weeks during the time, due to the drugs i was pumped with)
In short, i dont know when it occurred.

Ive sought councelling because i have never talked about my mcs ever, to any one.(well, only to you lot smile)
Additionally, i am coming up 42, and thught that that was IT the end, no more, even went and got the pill.

Patiently waiting for my period so that i could start taking the damned thing.
No af as yet.
Feeling much better in myself, councelling really really helping, im on a healthy eating mission (thanks to myfitnesspal) doing really well.

Accepting everything, although the grief has been overwhelming at times sad.

So af still not here, so bought a cheepy test, thought that all pregnancy hrmones will now be gone...this far after mc....almost immediately a pink line came up.

We dtd only a couple of times..it normally took me up to 22 months to concieve so this has floored me...completely and totally. Do not know what the jeff i should do?????????
All calming words of wisdom very much appreciated....i know i know, theres no fool like an old fool.. sad

Incaminka Wed 06-Jun-12 10:56:06

Cross your fingers really tight, and hope the same thing happems to me! Just had mc, awaiting period, am 42, no live babies yet. Really hoping for you.

nosleepwithworry Wed 06-Jun-12 11:02:09

Incaminka really hoping for you, omg, ive got everything crossed, when is your af due? Was it your 1st mc love?

Incaminka Wed 06-Jun-12 11:05:04

Third, so they are doing investigations. My af due in a couple of weels but amttc meanwhile! May not happen, but at least ttc is fun! :-)

Incaminka Wed 06-Jun-12 11:07:14

Great to hear your news, it's just so nerve wracking though, really hope this is the one for you.

nosleepwithworry Wed 06-Jun-12 11:10:54

Thanks but this isnt great news as i know that this will end as all of the others have. I just know.

Investigations are very nerve wracking, good luck with them, i hope that they come up with answers for you, they never did for me sadly. I had so much hope on them finding somethingt hat they could put right.

I am confident that i can do this again, i aim to just go for a D&C this time, i always just take the medication or wait for it to happen, but each mc has got progressively worse, so going to go for the quick option..then take those blasted pills. sadsadsad

Incaminka Wed 06-Jun-12 11:33:01

I really hope you are wrong, but I know what you mean. I wouldn't trust a pregnancy now for months. Lost one at 14weeks, that was hard. I hate our early unit now, every scan has been bad news.

nosleepwithworry Wed 06-Jun-12 11:38:01

I know what you mean, a + pregnancy test means nowt to me...other than, "here we go again".

Personally i feel uttelry robbed of the joy that normal folk feel when they embark on the ttc and preganncy journey.
14 weeks is utter shite, so sorry, all of mine have been before 12 weeks, well, i did get to 13 weeks once, but that didnt count as i knew it was ending from about 7 weeks.
sigh,
which mc clinic are you going to for investigations?

nosleepwithworry Wed 06-Jun-12 11:39:59

Ok, think i have aplan...im going to start with my GP..go and see them for advice. then just ignore untill it all starts to kick off and go tits up. then will book for D&C...then back to work, back to normal, back to councelling...oh joy smile sad

Incaminka Wed 06-Jun-12 11:49:16

It's horrid, isn't it. I have a box of pregnancy books etc, and I put it away in between, where it can't be seen, and get it out if I need it, but it is becoming less exciting each time. sad

Have you any pets? I find my siamese cats a welcome distraction, one is having kittens next week. That and work helps and also being in a band. If I get p again, I'm going to book loads of gigs, burn the box, and play with the kittens! Then if I need to buy stuff later, I can get excited then. Still hoping for both of us.

pebspop Wed 06-Jun-12 12:09:44

nosleep

hoping everything works out for you.

if i am right you have done it once and you can do it again! wink

i think a d&c is definatley the best plan for you if it does go wrong again as it will avoid all the physical pain and suffering you have been through with previous mc's. hope it doesn't come to that though - fingers crossed.

nosleepwithworry Wed 06-Jun-12 12:22:58

Hi pebs grin i can do it again, ready prepared sadly!

Incaminca no i dont have pets, i am definitely not an animal lover at all. I do have an 8 year old son who keeps us busy and happy smile so we are very very VERY lucky (although i lost 2 babies prior to having him)

We are off to a music festival this weekend, music is also my soothing saviour. We have holidays booked and lots to look forward to, so its quite easy to just get on with life.

Sopke to DH who is grin majorly grin atually....he sent me a picture of his butty which is huge..and asked me to send him a picture, so i did...of the +test! he rang me immediately! Bless him, he is desperate for another, he adores our ds and they go everywhere together.

So he agrees with the plan..GP then ignore ignore ignore till something ahppens.

Incaminka Wed 06-Jun-12 13:04:10

Fingers crossed then Having a great dp really helps. I have 2 now grown up step dc who I have a good relationship with, but no dc. Yet. ;)

TheQueenOfSheba Wed 06-Jun-12 13:11:14

This is what you do:

1. Get some Progesterone from your doctor and take that daily.
2. Take 1 x Baby Aspirin daily.
3. Rest as much as possible.

You have had a lot of miscarriages. If you do not have a happy outcome this time, I would be pushing for some immunity testing. You might have to pay for it, though.

Wishing you luck smile

Dropdeadfred Wed 06-Jun-12 13:14:14

I have had 13 mcs and an ectopic with ruptured tube - but I have had 3 successful pregnancies too so never rule it out!!!

nosleepwithworry Wed 06-Jun-12 13:30:23

Queenofsheeba ive done all that, it doesnt help, just causes my mcs to be prolonged, more painful and causes more bleeding. I am very reluctant to take anything like this again.

Also no kind of testing will change my outcomes, this i have accepted 100%...hence the councelling to accept it and come to terms.

Ive made an appointment for the GP this afternoon, i just want advice on how to request a D&C when the time comes, do i go through EFAU or A&E or GP?

Gahhhhhh doom & gloom, do you know, FUCK IT, im going to do this one how it should be done, im going to start again....
Here goes:

OMFG i got a BFP!!!! Im SO excited and want to tell the world, im pregnant!!!!! whoop whoop.
Im going to go to my GP this afternoon and ask her what normal people do when they get a BFP??????
Im going to cheerfully take my folic acid, and not have any cream cheese, im not going to let a negative thought into my head...no sirreeee, im happy happy happy grin

nosleepwithworry Wed 06-Jun-12 13:39:13

Thanks Christ i didnt have the mmr injection at work either, i said no as i hadnt yet had a period! Dunno why i did that! Thank goodness i did!

zoeymlucas Wed 06-Jun-12 13:59:59

Fingers crossed for you, and I hope you keep us update with your good news as you progress as I am sure it will be x

nosleepwithworry Wed 06-Jun-12 15:41:10

Ok, been to GP in a flurry of sobs and snot blush

She just said that its probably not residual hormones from previous mc which was 6-7 weeks ago.

Suggested HCG blood, i reluctantly agreed as these blood tests do not tell me anything helpful at all.
Advised me on how to go about requesting a D&C once things go wrong.
Continue with FA (i was just finishing the bottle becasue i cant throw anything away)

Agreed that its not worth going to the EPAU or contacting them yet as it is just too soon and all they will do is send me away for another couple of weeks.

So will sit and wait..and ignore. sad

Incaminka Wed 06-Jun-12 15:50:54

Ignoring is very difficult. It is most annoying that the ignoring can't be done accompanied by wine. sad
Or cheese.
Or bouillabaisse.

I find big fantasy books (Game of Thrones, Assassin's Apprentice, Wizard of Earthsea etc) help me take my mind off things. At least there is still chocolate. Have they given you a date by which you can confirm anything at all?

nosleepwithworry Wed 06-Jun-12 15:55:10

Up to me i think. I aim to leave this til the end of June......or until the bleeding & pain starts.
If i make it until the 1st Monday in July, i will go to the EPAU then.

I have some heavy duty pain killers and lots of stuff coming up through out June to keep me occupied, and i am very good at this so its all kinda inbuilt.

Good luck for your 2ww x

nosleepwithworry Wed 06-Jun-12 18:27:23

HOLY MOTHER OF CRAP!!! shock
shock

im still in utter utter shock!

willitbe Sun 10-Jun-12 23:25:57

Hi, I want to come and empathise with the point of getting to so many m/c's that a pregnancy does not mean that you immediately think baby, but start wondering when / and how badly it will be when it ends!

So I will tell you how I got through my last one, I got all the way to 9 weeks with feeling ok with the world through - firstly deciding that instead of taking the progesterone (as it only prolonged my m/c's too) I would eat loads of cheese (which I love!) and this I had with the glass of red wine, that acts to help with implantation (along the lines of the asprin). Cheese and wine, a great way to cope with those early weeks!!!!!!!

I went to councelling after I had had 9 miscarriages, and it really helped me get my head in a better place, allowing me to grieve properly for the losses. I would highly recommend going to councelling if you can find a councellor that understands grief with miscarriage.

I am 44 and no longer actively trying to get pregnant, but not using any contraception, and so if I get pregnant then it would be ok, and like you would be trying to manage those early weeks. (if I do get pregnant again, I will be throwing everything at it again including prednisolone etc.)

The other thing is that if you have not had a negative pregnancy test since your last miscarriage, there is the possibilty that you have retained placental tissue still and this could be that you are not having another pregnancy but the tail end of the last one. If you are like me, you will be doing cheap home pregnancy tests everyday and looking to see if the lines get darker...... but is that just me?

InsomniaQueen Sun 10-Jun-12 23:54:49

First - congratulations!!!
Second - when you come out of the 'ignore' stage the ladies on the thread below are wonderful - they supported me post MC, through every niggle and false alarm and their still here for me now my DD is 11 wo. Can't recommend it enough.

www.mumsnet.com/Talk/conception/1482448-Just-MC-and-ready-to-try-again-Pregnant-after-MC-and-seeking-somewhere-safe-to-hide-Recently-graduated-from-the-mosh-pit-Come-on-down-to-the-mosh-pit-for-some-serious-metalling-and-cake

Best of luck with it all - will be keeping fingers and toes crossed for you!! Xx

nosleepwithworry Mon 11-Jun-12 20:41:38

Hi willitbe thanks for your post.
As i said, i have been going to councelling since my last mc. Its really really helping me.
Retained products was the first thing that i thought about. But i am now about 9 weeks since my mc, i have no other symptoms. I think that if it were retained products, i would have a discharge, temperature etc and i have had none of that.
Cheepy tests are immediately very very dark almost as soon as the urine hits it.
No waiting the 5 minutes.......

When i tested positive for the last mc, it was very very faint after 4/5 minutes and that was a week after af was due.

I do believe this to be a new pregnancy (loss probablysad)

I am ignoring still. Ive ordered a clearblue digital, just to get an aproximate time. Ive decided to wait till July beofre i go to EPAU for advce....IF i make it to then, then it should be enough time to see anything viable on screen.

If i dont make it, i will ask for a D&C, get it over & done with.

Thats the plan.
STILL utterly gobsmacked grin

nosleepwithworry Mon 11-Jun-12 20:44:45

sorry, just to add, i never ever do a preg test after my mcs, there is very little point as they show positive up to 2 weeks after my mcs are complete with no further bleeding. (did them after 1st or 2nd mc, cant remember)

Hi nosleep. I have no experience of this but I just wanted to say you sound like one hell of a brave lady to me.

Congratulations. I have everything crossed for you. smile

OddBoots Mon 11-Jun-12 21:00:54

Oh, what a shock for you. It sounds like you have a plan for however things go but I'm really hoping hard for you.

willitbe Wed 13-Jun-12 13:04:12

nosleep - I had retained products with no discharge/temperature or any other sign that I was still pregnant other than positive pregnancy test. I was very very very shocked to pass an 8week old pregnancy sac (having ovulated in between!) But having said that, I was not getting strong pregnancy tests, they were gradually getting weaker over time, so it does sound like you may well be having a new pregnancy.

I am glad to hear that the councelling has helped you, it definitely helped me.

I hope that you get the miracle this time. I hope you don't get to the point I have where I can no longer remember hope many m/c's I have had and have to look it up to find out! (just looked it up, I have had 12 m/c's, 11 in the last 4 years). Just take one day at a time right now, and keep up the mantra that "today I am pregnant" and I will keep up the hope that you get your miracle of a successful pregnancy.

I will be looking out for your updates to see how you are doing.

nosleepwithworry Wed 13-Jun-12 13:14:18

Wilitbe wilitbe you must be my magic special hope!
gringringringringrin

OH MY FUCKING GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Went in to work today.....was told to go home again as i am on annual leave....hadnt realised. blush
Thought while i was there i would bob into EPAU for advice re the retained products.(i work in a hospital), they said they would take blood for HCG, and do a quick scan to look for retained products....

Did internal and the sonigrapher said "right ,what are we looking for here?"
i said "retained products, i mc about 8 weks ago"
she said "oh, not this little baby with a heart beat then?"

FUCK ME SIDEWAYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It was there, a real baby shape with a flicking strong heart beat...right there on the screen!

I always have blighted ovums, so empty sacs.......i just cannot believe it!

gringringringringringringrin

nosleepwithworry Wed 13-Jun-12 13:30:14

They gave me a picture, so im putting it into a card for DH for Sunday, fathers day...YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

willitbe,i have never met anyone in RL who has had as many mcs as me, let alone 12 like you and i get what you are saying completely about loosing count.
I also never ever look up due dates, or document when i have mcs.
This makes it easier to forget and means that i do not have any significant dates to get past.
I have created a fantastic blanket of protection and denial, perfected over years and years.
The councelling has helped to unpeel that blanket of protection, i was terrified of what this would uncver, but, dunno about you, it has helped me so much to actually expose and talk and bring it to the forefront.
I suppose what i have learned is that actually, what has happened to me is utterly horrendous, and horrific. I have realised the trauma of it becuase it just never occurred to me!!!!
People have awful awful things happen to them in life, my situation never compared in my head. I downplayed it so very well.

But 7 miscarriages, each and every one physically and mentally torturous are a terrible thing to happen to some one, terrible.

Also ironically, i went to councelling to help me to accept that i will never have another child. To get my head around it and put it to bed. I was definitely getting there.
I plucked up the courage to go and get advice re contraception, i plucked up the courage to get that prescription and had it in my head that i would take that pill every day. This went against what i had been doing for the last 5 years or so.
That is how far i had come.

What about you? Are you still trying? Have you ever had any answers about your mcs? How have you coped with the grief and trauma?
I hope you dont mind talking to me about this x

CointreauVersial Wed 13-Jun-12 13:34:25

OMG, fingers crossed for you, OP, it sounds like you soooo deserve this one to work.

5madthings Wed 13-Jun-12 13:43:09

oh wow, a bean with a heartbeat! exciting and very positive news, i shall be keeping everything crossed for you xxx

Jokat Wed 13-Jun-12 13:50:14

I'm so so happy for you, what amazing news! So if your previous mcs always happened following a blighted ovum, doesn't that mean this pregnancy has a very good chance of being successful?

nosleepwithworry Wed 13-Jun-12 13:57:51

hi, well blighted ovum is the cause of all but 2 of my mcs.
I have a 9 year old son, so he was there on scan at 12 weeks.
One other there was a baby with hb, but that one died a day or two after scan at 8 weeks, mc was very quick.

So today everything is ok for me, but tomorrow may not be. I dont hold out hope that this will be ok. I am just so happy that there is a baby there as this isnt usual for me, feel a little way there, where as usually, i have absolutely no hope.
grin happy happy happy!

Incaminka Wed 13-Jun-12 14:03:58

So, so, so pleaaed for you, and you have givrn me a wee bit of hope! :-)

nosleepwithworry Wed 13-Jun-12 14:07:36

Hi incaminka! waves....how are you xxxxxxx Lovely to see you again.

Look at how i had given up all hope...look what happened to me....dont lose hope my lovely xx

nosleepwithworry Wed 13-Jun-12 14:08:25

Incaminka, you are the lady with the cats arent you grin you were so very kind to me a while back x

I've just read this thread and I so hope this pregnancy progresses for you. I had an mc and an mmc in 2011, the latter of which ended in an ERPC. Then I had a successful pg and had my son this April. Am crossing everything for you!

Incaminka Wed 13-Jun-12 14:23:27

Keeping things crossed for you!
yes, cats - expecting an oops litter of half siamese any day now!
Been using opks but nothing yet, still we are practicing anyway; -)

bumbez Wed 13-Jun-12 14:31:45

Fingers crossed for you!

ShowOfHands Wed 13-Jun-12 14:32:53

grin I LOVE this thread.

Brilliant brilliant brilliant.

I think the card and picture is a wonderful idea. Is it a secret till then? How will you cope not showing dh?

nosleepwithworry Wed 13-Jun-12 15:55:28

NO!!!! think im gonna BURST before Sunday!!!
He is going to be exstatic, absolutely over the moon grin

Might just burst out of me tonight!
Ive bought him some little smiley chocolates from Thorntons...gonna give him them first....griiiiiiin grin

So does he not even know you are pregnant yet? This is sooo exciting. grin

nosleepwithworry Wed 13-Jun-12 16:05:07

oh yes he knows i am pregnant but does not know i have a baby in there iyswim!
We always have an empty gestational sac, never a baby when scanned!
He didnt know i was going to EPAU today...neither did i, it wasnt planned!

Cant wait till he comes home form work now!

He's not going to know what's hit him. I have everything crossed for you. smile

WheresMyCow Wed 13-Jun-12 16:36:11

Keeping everything crossed for you nosleep smile

What an amazing lovely thread, you sound brimming with happiness and I dont blame you!!! Did they say how far? A heartbeat doesn't show till abit later does it? X

willitbe Wed 13-Jun-12 20:59:05

Yippy - hey this is making me grin like a cheshire cat, so pleased for you. It is wonderful news. I bet you don't even give your dh time to see the happy face choccies before you burst out and tell him!!!!

We are still trying, all be it in that we are not actually using contraception and since I am very aware of my fertile times in my cycle, I can't say we are avoiding the possibility of another pregnancy. I still feel that maybe there will be a little miracle for me (as well as you!!!), I have been through so many consultants being investigated and there are little answers that I have got. Possible clotting problem while pregnant (TEG test) but not when not pregnant, for this they recommend asprin (and heperin injections), also since I have been tested as slightly ANA+ on one occasion I am now being prescribed prednisolone for pregnancy, then of course there is the good old.... lets give you progesterone too. I have tried so many permuations and combinations and totally lost trust in the hospitals, so the only way I get through things now is through my little "today I am pregnant" mantra and the trying to not think about it (impossible!).

If in a couple of weeks (as ovulating now) I get a positive test, I expect to just test everyday watching the tests get darker, and not going for scan until I reach over 8 weeks. If I get passed 6 weeks I will get more councelling to help with talking through my hopes and fears too. Each of the miscarriages I have had have been very different, and some I found harder than others to deal with. But each one I needed to acknowledge and process the grief. My grief has been compounded by the treatment I have recieved at the local hospital. Things like scans within half an hour of each other one being told m/c all over and no retained products and normal uterine lining size and the other that my lining still thickened and would still have more to lose. Another time I was told by a junior doctor with regards to my scan results "well you will be glad to know you don't have cancer". Things like this have added to the grief and hindered my acceptance of what is going on each time. Last time I purposefully did not tell GP or hospital that I was pregnant, and booked a private scan at 9 weeks. I think that with recurrent m/c's you just have to do whatever feels right for you.

I am so excited for you seeing that you have had such a positive and encouraging scan today. I am really happy for you, and look forward to hearing how your husband takes the news tonight!

Keeping everything crossed for you.

This thread has brought tears to my eyes smile

wilderumpus Thu 14-Jun-12 12:05:53

hi nosleep, congrats, congrats but totally understand why you are so pragmatic about it. So happy though that you have another chance smile talk away on the pg after mc thread won't you, if you need to, think quite a few of us have read this thread now and understand more where you are coming from. xx

nosleepwithworry Thu 14-Jun-12 15:10:55

Told dh! Of course he cried....bless!!!

Had to have a nana nap at luch time.smile

still grin and still thinking in my head "Holy mother of crap"!!!!!

Hullygully Thu 14-Jun-12 15:18:03

I am so crossed I have fallen over xx

nosleepwithworry Thu 14-Jun-12 15:23:36

DO NOT under any circumstances UNCROSS...ok, just keep it all crossed...even on the floor.....

birdofthenorth Thu 14-Jun-12 15:24:27

This thread made me cry! Keeping absolutely everything crossed for you OP!!

DameHermione Thu 14-Jun-12 15:31:11

Oooooh.

Justooooooooh.

And

Hurrah!

fannybaws Thu 14-Jun-12 15:38:48

Just read this and had to post, good luck op xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx everything crossed xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

nosleepwithworry Thu 14-Jun-12 15:47:02

7 weeks tomorrow....happyhappyhappyhappy smile

<Crosses everything>

So so happy for you grin

<Crosses some more>

skirt Thu 14-Jun-12 16:14:41

Me too. This is one of those threads I know I will look for each and every day. Love and luck x

Have you saved the pic nosleep or have you kept it back 'till Sunday?

Have you shown him the pic *nosleep or have you kept it back 'till Sunday?

I give up!

teedeeuk Thu 14-Jun-12 18:52:34

What a wonderful thread! Wishing you all the luck in the world OP smile

LadyInPink Thu 14-Jun-12 19:06:45

Just read this and just had to post. Am keeping everythinhg crossed too and am totally thrilled that you have a heart beating bean - YAY!! My best scan pic is the one at 5+6 wks where the tiny bean had a pumping heartbeat and i nearly jumped off the couch for joy - this was after a mc and she is nearly 8 yrs old.

So happy for you and your DH and I can't wait to hear how he reacts to his card on Sunday smile

finnbarr Thu 14-Jun-12 20:08:10

Oh I just cried about the sonographer!!! I have EVERYTHiNG crossed!!! Xxxx

tunnocksteacake Fri 15-Jun-12 10:22:19

Message withdrawn at poster's request.

nosleepwithworry Fri 15-Jun-12 20:01:42

Gave him the picture on Wednesday evening...he cried natch!

Thanks for all the well wishes, i could burst with happiness smile

Munchin Fri 15-Jun-12 20:20:38

Hi Nosleep just read through this thread and wanted to say congrats and I have fx that this time you will get to hold your baby. I recently had a mmc but I cannot imagine having 7 mc's. I don't blame you not wanting to believe it in the beginning but yes today you are pg!!!

Coconutty Fri 15-Jun-12 20:28:03

I have no experience of this but I am loving the good vibes on this thread and am too crossing everything for you! Will do so for the next 33 weeks if we have too!

wilderumpus Fri 15-Jun-12 21:21:28

hurray nosleep! I am sooooo excited for you smile My mc was a BO too. bugger shit but those scans of an empty sac were heartbreaking (took 4 weeks and three scans for them to totally agree it was a failed pg, had medical mc at 10 weeks). I have had a terrible time grieving for my one mc, let alone 7. Am so happy for you and your DH xx

Pumpster Fri 15-Jun-12 21:26:52

So happy for you! grin

WhatDreamsMayCome Sat 16-Jun-12 12:31:40

Congratulations nosleep! You do realise that you now have to post on here at least once at week with your progress! smile You probably already know this, but sleeping on your left side is supposed to be beneficial for the baby. Wishing you the best of luck with your progress.

newtonupontheheath Sat 16-Jun-12 12:37:38

This is an amazing story.... Huge congrats!

I've read a couple of times now, keeping up to date with your progress. Can't imagine how hard everything must have been for you but wishing you the very best of luck.

Have a fantastic fathers day wink

newtonupontheheath Sat 16-Jun-12 12:38:00

That should be smile or even grin not wink

blush

LemonBreeland Sat 16-Jun-12 15:44:33

Nosleep, so excited for you. I will also keep everything crossed for you.

flapperghasted Sat 16-Jun-12 15:49:03

I had 4 mcs, 3 before dd, 1 after, and I remember how bloody scared it got to see the line and know that I was pg. I can't tell you how much I hope that this pregnancy works for you.

Do what all the clever people have said and look after yourself. I'll just wave my hippy dippy hand in the air, say hi, and say I am SO rooting for you and this baby. Good luck!!!!!

Thumbwitch Sat 16-Jun-12 15:56:14

Ohhh - I hope that everything keeps going well for you!

My latest mantra is get your Vit D levels checked and if they're low, get some on prescription to take - I had 3 MCs over 2y, but then had my levels checked because of something else, they were low, got megadose Vit D from pharmacist on scrip and voila - pg with a sticky! Now 23w and still going strong (FX, touch wood, God willing etc.) - being walloped just now, actually!

Low Vit D is associated with subfertility and MC, so if your doc will test and prescribe, do it! Just to take one more risk factor out of the equation. smile

And do nothing! as far as you can, anyway. (Did I mention I'm 44? Milking it for all it's worth - but I'm also way tireder this time than last time) grin

ListenToYourHeart Sat 16-Jun-12 19:16:12

Really hope things go well for you this time, don't ever give up hope.

This time round you might get your little miracle x

shushpenfold Sat 16-Jun-12 19:22:15

Gosh...crossing it all for you xxxx

RandomMess Sat 16-Jun-12 19:28:50

So so so so so pleased for you, hope this turns into a complete miracle for you too smile

LadyInPink Sat 16-Jun-12 19:52:03

Sorry to hijack but congratulations Thumby, haven't seen you around in a while. That is fantastic news smile

pixiestix Sat 16-Jun-12 20:05:41

Ohhhh, I've got something in my eye.

So so pleased for you. Am crossing everything.

Joolyjoolyjoo Sat 16-Jun-12 20:18:17

What a lovely thread! Really really rooting for you, you sound amazingly strong.

nosleepwithworry Sat 16-Jun-12 21:05:27

Absolutely delighted to tell you all that i feel utterly utterly shite, exhausted and sick....WHOOPWHOOPWHOOP!!!! SO happy to be feeling crap grin

Nana naps galore! I kove nana naps me grin

Yay! I don't think I've ever wished morning sickness on someone before grin grin

5madthings Sat 16-Jun-12 21:13:21

feeling crap and tired and sick is great grin thrilled for you, have you told your dh about the scan and shown him the pic? smile

RandomMess Sat 16-Jun-12 21:14:42

smile

nosleepwithworry Sat 16-Jun-12 21:19:43

DH keeps telling me to lie down, have a sleep, leave the hoovering, he will do it...defo very protective and helpful,

I feel very emotional, keep wanting to cry, no not cry, sob & wail really,
I just dont want it to end.

VickityBoo Sat 16-Jun-12 21:21:40

I don't know you but read this and wanted to say congratulations and I really hope that this baby grows and grows into a tough little one to keep you busy in 2013! x

KatyJ26 Sat 16-Jun-12 21:27:47

I read this and just wanted to wish you lots of luck. I have everything crossed for you. You sound like an amazing lady and I so hope you get your much wanted little one, sibling for your son, and complete your family.
Long live nana naps!grin

Jokat Sat 16-Jun-12 22:27:12

How wonderful that you're feeling so awful, what a great sign that things are going well! Enjoy grin

Let your DH take care of you as much as possible. Every pregnancy of mine has seen me insist on lie-ins galore; any excuse! wink
Everything's still crossed for you over here btw smile

Thumbwitch Sun 17-Jun-12 11:19:05

Thank you Lippy!! grin

LadyInPink Sun 17-Jun-12 21:45:55

I too welcomed the knackedness and sickness as to me that signified a healthy baby growing inside so am over the moon you're feeling that way. I was sick pretty much the whole pg but secretely i was overjoyed as to me it meant she was well and growing (hadn't felt anything with 1st pg and at first i'd been a bit smug that pg was going to be easy not realising what it actually had meant sad)

Nosleep and Thumb What a joyous Father's Day it's been for you both then smile

nosleepwithworry Mon 18-Jun-12 19:54:27

Symptoms still very strong...that said, ive had very strong symptoms in the past and still had blighted ovum and mc.

This one feels very very strong, stopping me in my tracks strong and so im quietly encouraged smile
This is making it hard to ignore..which as you all know, is part of my plan. So i am instead reminded minute by minute that i have a teeny tiny baby inside me gringringrin

5madthings Mon 18-Jun-12 20:33:12

yay for strong symptoms and yes you have a teeny tiny baby with a hearbeat inside of you grin its amazing, keep resting and let your dh do all he wants to help, when do you next have a scan, will it be 12wks now or will they moniter you more closely? smile

nosleepwithworry Mon 18-Jun-12 20:36:26

EPAU have offered me a scan at 9 weeks....im a regular there lol, they know me by name now! grin
So in 2 weeks time, im going to go back.

They just said "pop back at 9 weeks so we can reassure you" !!! How fab are they grin!

JulieScrumptious Mon 18-Jun-12 20:51:32

Everything crossed here for you x

Fuzzywood Mon 18-Jun-12 20:54:44

Aww just read the thread, I have a tear in my eye and everything firmly crossed for you, see -> x x x x x x

5madthings Mon 18-Jun-12 21:00:56

oh thats lovely, shall look out for your update, i am sure you wont relax till you have baby safely in your arms, pretty sure we will all hold your hand over the internet the whole way through if you want us to, everything crossed for you and your baby bean smile xxx

I'm so glad you feel crappy - and have everything crossed it continues. grin

Your story has given me a teeny ray of hope - I'm now in double figures (i think, have also stopped counting) for mc's and about the same age as you and have absolutely given up.

Good luck and take it really easy.

nosleepwithworry Mon 18-Jun-12 21:21:04

daisydot i had given up too, completely, totally and utterly.
Had been discharged by reoccuring mc clinic as there was nothing they could do for us, got the pill, went to councelling to accept the decision it was over.

So..here i am, gobsmacked!
Nothing to say that this wont go tits up, but so far this should not be happening to me.

grin teeny tiny little hope SHOULD come your way too...smile

Thumbwitch Tue 19-Jun-12 00:23:04

daisydot - can I recommend vitamin D to you? I really don't know if it will make the difference or not but it might and it certainly can't hurt, so worth a go?

chipmonkey Tue 19-Jun-12 00:49:41

Right, watching and praying. I am good at praying.

Lurking but popping up to wish you many more weeks of feeling like utter crap grin Fingers crossed for your ongoing sickness x

izzybizzybuzzybees Tue 19-Jun-12 05:11:03

Wow! Seen this thread in active combos. I don't 'know' you either but I am so happy for you. I hope you have a lovely scan in a fortnight and that you get tour long awaited take home baby
smile

worrywortisworrying Tue 19-Jun-12 05:24:39

Fingers very tightly crossed here too.

WheresMyCow Tue 19-Jun-12 08:04:27

Fingers (and everything else) still crossed here...long may the sickness continue grin

ajandjjmum Tue 19-Jun-12 12:14:35

Popped into Church on Sunday nosleep when I took flowers to my Dad's grave. Said a little prayer for you and baby.

Another one glad you're feeling shit!

nosleepwithworry Tue 19-Jun-12 15:51:36

Ok, so feeling very emotional...crying at, well, just about everything..especially that last wee post ajandjjmum that is just so sweet thankyou so very much, little weepy tears streaming when i read that.
What a priviledge to be in your thoughts along with your lovely dad xxxxx

Homes under the hammer made me cry this morning, the transformation of a little shop into a bungalow was evidenty too much for me blush!

nosleepwithworry Tue 19-Jun-12 15:52:57

Oh and having to unleash my girls from the constraints of an average size bra the very minute i walk into the house...they are an almighty pair, let me tell you! grin

Nonio Tue 19-Jun-12 16:17:44

Keep up the counselling and follow your plan... Only you know how much you can take. I wish you all the luck in the world x

thumbiwitch - why vitamin D? What does it do? I'm up for almost anything, I think.

nosleep - long may those puppies continue to burst through your bras. Quite the best news. And I can't imagine how shocked you are - I don't think I've accepted my situation as you had. And now look!

Fingers crossed you continue to feel absolutely shocking with vast tits.

Thumbwitch Tue 19-Jun-12 16:33:36

Daisy - I posted this further up thread but for ease and convenience will repost it here:
My latest mantra is get your Vit D levels checked and if they're low, get some on prescription to take - I had 3 MCs over 2y, but then had my levels checked because of something else, they were low, got megadose Vit D from pharmacist on scrip and voila - pg with a sticky! Now 23w and still going strong (FX, touch wood, God willing etc.) - being walloped just now, actually!

Low Vit D is associated with subfertility and MC, so if your doc will test and prescribe, do it! Just to take one more risk factor out of the equation.

As I said, it can't hurt and it could help - I don't know that it made all the difference to me, because it might just have been a "good egg" as opposed to a rotten one - but at 44, I'll take what I can get! I just think it's such an easy risk factor to remove that it's worth telling everyone about it. smile

Watching in hope - what a lovely thread!

RobinSparkles Tue 19-Jun-12 17:45:48

Also watching in hope! Have all my fingers and toes crossed for you!

Will you have anymore early scans?? Maybe you could post the pic and keep everyone's spirits up, it's a beautiful story x

PullUpAPew Tue 19-Jun-12 20:27:34

Wow, just amazed really at your story, I am hoping for you x

willitbe Tue 19-Jun-12 20:35:16

7 and half weeks and counting,,,,,,, whoops you are trying not to think about it grin. May your tiredness, sore boobs and general 'orrible symptoms continue and increase as necessary and you grow your bubba. Just wanted to let you know I am still thinking of you.

EugenesAxe Tue 19-Jun-12 20:38:32

You already have a DS NoSleep - so who's to say this pregnancy won't turn out the same?

Really hoping it will. Obviously total whimsy, but I'd like to think a music festival will give it something in life to cling to smile Besides your uterus that is.

porridgelover Tue 19-Jun-12 20:52:44

Wow nosleep...I've just read this and you sound incredibly strong. I wish you the very best over the coming weeks.

catinboots Tue 19-Jun-12 21:00:00

I am praying for you and your little munchkin nosleep smile

xxx

Sittinginthesun Tue 19-Jun-12 21:14:21

Just read your thread, and will also be with you all the way. Good luck.

WhatDreamsMayCome Tue 19-Jun-12 23:24:38

thumbwitch - I took 4000iu of vitamin D3 everyday and unfortunately it wasn't to continue further than 14 weeks. I know that you are recommending it because you feel passionate about it, I was too but it didn't do the trick - perhaps I wasn't taking enough, perhaps it was because it wasn't in the form of natural sunlight (was winter) but I was unwilling to take more than i had read was acceptable and the maximum recommended on US websites seems to be that amount for pregnancy. It's unlikely that taking it was the cause of it so it can't hurt for others to talk to their GP if they are thinking about taking some. On the bright side, I did get pregnant on first attempt so there may well be something in it (was 39 at the time). Don't want to hijack or bring down the beautiful joy of this thread - we could talk about vitamin D on another thread, would be pleased to do so at any time, it would be great to do so. Hope you don't mind me giving another side to it.

Nosleep! Enjoying every one of your lovely posts. Things are sounding very positive! The sickness is all good. Glad to read that you are enjoying your nana naps, that made me smile!

cairnterrier Tue 19-Jun-12 23:26:18

Prayers sent to heaven from Norfolk too. Your post made me cry smile

Long may the nausea, tiredness and sore boobs last grin

Thumbwitch Wed 20-Jun-12 00:26:16

WhatDreams - I wasn't taking it in pregnancy, I was taking it prior - my levels had been checked and were below normal range, so I was megadosed (10,000 iu once a fortnight) and by the time I became pg with this one my levels were back into normal range.

There are no safety studies on the levels of vit D supplementation in pg; I asked my pharmacist if I should continue to take the pills monthly and they didn't know the answer - so I didn't.

I'm not saying it will lead to a successful outcome, who can know that? And I'm sorry that it didn't in your case sad - just that it might remove a known risk factor for MC and subfertility. But if your levels are checked and are within range (which I recommend doing first) then there's probably no point taking it.

WhatDreamsMayCome Wed 20-Jun-12 00:47:45

My levels had already been checked. I had been taking it for four years before pregnancy. Would be great to discuss this on another thread as we've had different experiences with it. 10,000 iu every fortnight, for example, might be considered mega in the UK but perhaps not in the view of the Vitamin D Council and GrassRoots Association in the USA. There is a great deal of discussion about what the best range is and by the time papers are peer reviewed, the consensus becomes even lower. Going to bed now but very willing to chat tomorrow! smile. Would be really good to discuss with someone who has taken it here, as it seems there are fewer taking it here than in America. Congratulations on your pregnancy by the way! Glad that everything has worked out for well for you.

Thumbwitch Wed 20-Jun-12 00:49:22

(Am not in UK, Whatdreams - am in Australia grin) But yes, happy to chat elsewhere. smile I love the Vitamin D Council, they do excellent work.

WhatDreamsMayCome Fri 22-Jun-12 09:35:55

Hope you're doing well nosleep. Thinking of you. smile

nosleepwithworry Fri 22-Jun-12 21:06:03

Hello!
8 weeks today smile
im green around the gills, yet GOTTA eat every couple of hours because i am absolutely ravenous, RAVENOUS i tell ya!
Clothes tightening, feel like theres a bump there already.

Going to book for a scan next week, just to check everything is going ok. EXCITED!!!!

I am sucking every second out of this, just keep thinkng "i will never ever be 7 weeks/8 weeks pregnant again, i want to remember and savour it, every second of it.
I still cant believe it, still completely amazed that this is going right for me...5 years 7 miscarriages.

I am determined.
Whatever happens, whatever comes for me, right now, at this second in time, i am a normal pregnant lady, i have a baby inside me, a desperately loved and wanted miracle of a baby.
What i saw on that screen, that day and that overwhelming joy right there and then will stay with me forever.

I dont know who to thank, i feel like someone has granted this for me, and that i need to kiss their feet, but i dont know who it is....crazy lady!!!!!

WHOOP WHOOP grin

ajandjjmum Fri 22-Jun-12 21:32:02

smile

I am so happy for you! grin

Keeping everything crossed for you.

CointreauVersial Fri 22-Jun-12 21:49:20

Brilliant to hear it's going so well; you totally deserve to stay pregnant for....oooh....at least 32 more weeks.

WheresMyCow Fri 22-Jun-12 23:04:31

gringringrin

Thumbwitch Sat 23-Jun-12 01:32:01

nosleep - that's fantastic! Everything crossed for you that it keeps going as well as it is. smile

grin Everything crossed for you grin

May your days be full of morning sickness and cravings.

grin

<Still crossing everything>

lotsofcheese Sat 23-Jun-12 08:25:06

Message withdrawn at poster's request.

lotsofcheese Sat 23-Jun-12 08:26:27

Oopps - posted on wrong thread - a million apologies - and even more congratulations!! gringringrin

LadyInPink Sat 23-Jun-12 20:17:50

Yay! 8 weeks, how exciting smile

I have read this thread with a smile on my face, I have everything crossed for you nosleep smile

willitbe Sun 24-Jun-12 19:58:36

Glad to hear you are enjoying every minute, and looking forward to hearing all about the wonderful scan this week. grin

nosleepwithworry Mon 25-Jun-12 09:27:21

BOWK
grin

Mama1980 Mon 25-Jun-12 09:39:40

grin I have everything even my little toe crossed for you! Wishing u months of sickness, exhaustion and too tight trousers grin xxx

IawnCont Mon 25-Jun-12 09:42:47

Everything crossed for you. x

ThisTimeNextYearRodney Mon 25-Jun-12 09:51:37

Just come across this thread, amazing! Fingers and toes crossed for you x

GobblersKnob Mon 25-Jun-12 10:05:32

What a lovely thread, I will keep everything crossed for you and pray that you get greener and greener and hungrier and hungrier and rounder and rounder.

grin

Vicky2011 Mon 25-Jun-12 10:19:28

All crossed xx

nosleepwithworry Mon 25-Jun-12 10:25:00

Oh thank Christ for toasted tea cakes!
Yum

Now off to sports day, secretly hoping it rains as i feel a nana nap coming on...

Haribojoe Mon 25-Jun-12 10:29:03

Just read this thread and want to wish you a massive congrats, what a wonderful thing. Long may the sickness, sore boobs and Nanna naps continue grin

Aww wow, this thread made me shed a wee tear! Amazing!
Another one lying on the floor with everything crossed for you smile
I won't move for another 32 weeks I tell ya!

Keep peeking at the thread.

I am willing you to keep on feeling queasy grin.

WhatDreamsMayCome Tue 26-Jun-12 01:02:46

Love this thread!
Mmm, toasted tea cakes, yum. Any other cravings, nosleep?

NatashaBee Tue 26-Jun-12 01:05:35

Been lurking on this thread for a while, so glad to hear all is going well. I have everything crossed for you grin

nosleepwithworry Tue 26-Jun-12 09:37:39

Thanks every one! So happy that you are all behnd me xxx
Scan tomorrow, lets see what that brings...fingers crossed its all good.

Craving Yorkshire puddings and gravy, which is lovely because i craved ice cubes oddly when expecting my ds...ice cubes! Whats the point in that? confused

Got all tearful like a twat at sportsday when ds came 2nd in the sack race grin then had mega nana nap for 2.5 hours, then had to go to bed at 8 as i couldn't keep my eyes open!
lazy arse.

Ive just started a masters degree and as soon as i start my research my eyes become welded shut..thats no good is it!?

One day at a time, one day at a time....

5madthings Tue 26-Jun-12 09:50:04

tearful and knackered is GOOD! i could sleep for england in those first few weeks, its amazing such a tiny thing can make you so tired!

good luck for the scan tomorrow, will have everything crossed for you, you will be 9wks then?

i craved ice cubes as well, along with raw carrot and celery! they do funny things to us these babies.

xxx

porridgelover Tue 26-Jun-12 12:13:30

nosleep I will be checking my threads tomorrow dying to hear how your scan goes. Fingers crossed for you.

WheresMyCow Tue 26-Jun-12 13:11:54

Everything still crossed for you here, good luck for the scan tomorrow smile

WhatDreamsMayCome Tue 26-Jun-12 19:00:04

Definitely behind you, every step of the way!
Will be thinking of you tomorrow and keeping everything crossed. Are you being monitored with blood tests for hormones, vitamins etc too? I want them to look after you as well as possible at the hospital smile
You only can do your best with the Master's. You might find it easier to concentrate a bit further along. As you say, one day at a time.
Good luck for tomorrow.

Killergerbil Tue 26-Jun-12 19:28:22

Keep peeking at this thread, everything crossed for you, hope it goes well tomorrow xx

nosleepwithworry Tue 26-Jun-12 19:31:06

Thanks Whatdreams will chip away at masters.

I am not being monitored at all other than regular scans. There isnt anything else that they can offer tbh.

Blood tests are not helpful and so i dont have them.

Im having a wobble tonight, feeling very anxious about scan tomorrow, feeling very doom & gloom.
Panic about how i will cope if its bad news.
I kind of, well, assume it will be bad news, presume that it will be the same story as always.

Talking myself into practical mode..book D&C, see if they do them on a Saturday, that way i wont miss any work this week and can go to work on Tuesday, no one will need to know because i feel ashamed that i have let this happen again.
Every one told me "enough now" after my last mc, i agreed, told them all i had the pill.
Im embarrased that im nearly 42 and have let this happen again after so much upset and distress and pain and disruption after the last mc.

DH is sat there happy as anything because ive told him i feel like death today..which i do, he is blissfully ignorant to my anxieties and that this is likely to be just like all the others. I dont want to take away his happiness again, like i do everytime i loose his baby. sad

RandomMess Tue 26-Jun-12 19:40:23

Hope all goes well tomorrow, I can't imagine how worried you are sad

pullupapew Tue 26-Jun-12 20:08:54

nosleep I think you're being hard on yourself about 'letting this happen' - you didn't expect it, it is just chance.

I think it is to be expected to be so very anxious, how could you be anything else?

But don't be hard on yourself for also having some hope, it's natural.

Take care and I will be thinking of you tomorrow x

IawnCont Tue 26-Jun-12 20:13:05

Thinking of you tomorrow nosleep. None of this is your fault- you know that right? Your latest post made me sad because you seem to be beating up on yourself a lot. Loads of hugs for you xxx

lotsofcheese Tue 26-Jun-12 20:27:36

Be kind to yourself: you've been through a lot. Your anxieties are entirely normal given your history.

I also think those of us who have had miscarriages have a wee bit of defence mechanism going on (understandably) - we think the worst before scans, planning for the worst scenario.

I really hope everything goes well tomorrow xxxx

WhatDreamsMayCome Tue 26-Jun-12 20:48:53

It's very natural to feel worried after your experiences however last time everything you saw on the scan was good so there is a high probability that it will good news again, plus there are very positive signs - the sore boobs, the sickness, new cravings and the now legendary nana naps! You are allowed to have hope! We all have it for you.
Optimism rules the day!

catinboots Tue 26-Jun-12 20:59:02

You and your baby will be fine. I'm sure of it. I truly believe all will be well with this sticky little fighter of a bean. Think positive thoughts my darling.

Xxxxxxxxxxxx

wantingmore Tue 26-Jun-12 21:11:53

congratulations.
i really hope everythng goes well tomorrow.

newtonupontheheath Tue 26-Jun-12 21:15:21

Hope everything goes well for you tomorrow...
Lots of people on here will be thinking of you!

ajandjjmum Tue 26-Jun-12 21:33:22

You mustn't carry all the worry yourself though, you must share it with your DH. Please don't blame yourself for what has happened in the past.

Hope tomorrow goes well. smile

ReportMeNow Tue 26-Jun-12 21:43:10

Another delurker wishing you the best for tomorrow xx

neolara Tue 26-Jun-12 22:21:31

Best of luck for tomorrow. I've had 4 mc so have an inkling of what your going through. Fingers crossed all the way.

Jodidi Tue 26-Jun-12 23:00:31

I've got everything crossed for you too. I hope everything goes well for you at the scan tomorrow, I'll be checking for updates and thinking of you.
Do share your anxieties with your dh, he may be having the exact same thoughts and trying not to worry you about it. None of what has happened to you has been your fault so please don't blame yourself for any of it.
Good luck xx

CointreauVersial Tue 26-Jun-12 23:57:30

Try not to over-think things before they actually happen - I know, easy for me to say.

What will be will be (but you know that). Having said that, I really hope it is nothing but good news tomorrow.

Geeklette Wed 27-Jun-12 08:14:39

Just de-lurking long enough to wish you the very best of luck for today's scan. This thread has been a joy to read, and so well-deserved after the heartbreak you have gone through.

Wishing you the very best for today.

WheresMyCow Wed 27-Jun-12 08:46:51

Your last post made me sad try not to be too hard on yourself.

I will be thinking of you today and hoping so so much that this is a good scan for you (((hugs)))

artifarti Wed 27-Jun-12 09:27:37

Such a lovely thread. Good luck today.

iloveberries Wed 27-Jun-12 09:54:42

thinking of you and good luck today at yourscan!

Mama1980 Wed 27-Jun-12 09:55:58

Good luck smile

5madthings Wed 27-Jun-12 11:05:23

good luck today, thinking of you xxxxxxxxxx

Countmyblessings Wed 27-Jun-12 11:47:49

Holding breath until you post with update! Praying all will be well for you both!!! Xxxx

LadyInPink Wed 27-Jun-12 13:18:18

Fingers are firmly crossed for you today for the scan x

OddBoots Wed 27-Jun-12 15:33:35

Thinking of you and sending love.

HJBeans Wed 27-Jun-12 18:34:28

Just joining the chorus of folks thinking of you and wishing the best for today.

Xx

finnbarr Wed 27-Jun-12 18:50:18

So...? I've had everything crossed all day x

5madthings Wed 27-Jun-12 18:53:12

still thinking of you, hoping all went well xxxx

minceorotherwise Wed 27-Jun-12 18:54:50

Fingers and thumbs all crossed here for you too x

libelulle Wed 27-Jun-12 18:57:54

Another lurker wishing you well and hoping for a good news update, I can only imagine how hard this must be for you xx

nosleepwithworry Wed 27-Jun-12 19:07:46

Sooooooo

There is still a blob there with a heartbeat and everything!!! grin

Same fab Sonographer from my last shocker scan..yay!!!!

She did it with an external scanning device..my little blob was big enough to see with that! No need for an internal scan.

Then as i was leaving, she gave me a hug and said "Go and get booked in with your midwife now"!!!

me and a midwife..fancy that!
Apparently, thats what normal people do??

Holy mother of crappola!

So its really happening.
grin
grin
grin
SO happy smile

jenbird Wed 27-Jun-12 19:10:44

Another lurker here. Been checking up for your news all day. So very very happy for you x

HairyPotter Wed 27-Jun-12 19:12:22

Coming out of lurkdom to say how happy I am for you. Such wonderful news xx

oiwheresthecoffee Wed 27-Jun-12 19:12:30

Oh im so happy for you ! You dont know me but ive been reading your thread. I know its not allowed but have a massive ((((((HUG))))))

minceorotherwise Wed 27-Jun-12 19:13:37

Oh crikey!!!!!!!!!
Fab, fab fab!!!!
Better get booked in with the midwife then!!!!

Spink Wed 27-Jun-12 19:13:55

Another lurker whooping maniacally for you. HURRAH!!

5madthings Wed 27-Jun-12 19:14:59

oh my god, tears here! have been nervously waiting for your update all day, so so THRILLED FOR YOU!!! yes huge hugs, and woohooo go book in with your midwife!!!

its really happening indeed, hope you got another picture of your bean, how is dh, thrilled as well? now go and get some sleep! xxxx

keep us updated, will your next scan be the regular 12wk one? smile

just grin grin grin for you!

mumofjust1 Wed 27-Jun-12 19:18:46

Have been lurking, wanted my first post to be a big

CONGRATULATIONS!!!

Hope all goes perfectly with your pregnancy smile

x

RandomMess Wed 27-Jun-12 19:18:50

Fantastic, fantastic, fantastic grin

Like like like grin

nosleepwithworry Wed 27-Jun-12 19:20:29

oooh get me...a "regular" 12 week scan.
Yes, im a normal pregnant woman now.

Will book in with the midwife next week.
9 weeks on Friday, do midwives see you that early?

FriskyBivalves Wed 27-Jun-12 19:20:47

Oh please please treat yourself to a ten week scan so more delurkers can envelop you in un-Mumsnetty hugs!! I know I wouldn't be able to wait another whole month on Blob Watch grin.

Jacksmania Wed 27-Jun-12 19:22:17

I wonder exactly how many of us are lurking on this thread grin

De-lurking to say CONGRATULATIONS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

5madthings Wed 27-Jun-12 19:23:21

depends i got booked in at about that, gives them time to arrange your 12wk scan and given your history yes i am sure they will book you in. some places dont let you book in till 10wks plus but i booked in at about 9wks with mine due to issues in a previous pregnancy and they were fine with that.

wow, bet you are on cloud 9! grin

massive congratulations smile

I am so happy for you. Genuinely like this >> grin grin

I've been on so many of your threads before and I really hope (and feel) that this is the one !!

xxx

SconesForTea Wed 27-Jun-12 19:23:29

Delurking to say a massive WOOOO HOOOOO!!!!<runs around the room like a loon> Congratulations and all the best with your pregnancy!

oiwheresthecoffee Wed 27-Jun-12 19:24:04

Have you told your DH ?

Another de-lurker here! Massive CONGRATULATIONS xxxxx

Piffpaffpoff Wed 27-Jun-12 19:27:52

Another lurker. Brilliant news!!!!!!!!

nosleepwithworry Wed 27-Jun-12 19:28:51

DH was with me at the scan.
I looked away from the screen, stopped breathing for about 15 minutes (im sure)
squeezed his hand almost to death.
Lovely lovely Sonographer immediately turned to screen to me and said "look, a heart beat".
Of course i couldn't see as i was bawling, so she kept getting it up on the screen for me, until i could see it clearly.
She kept saying "its there, its there"!

Trouble is that i once had a scan, about 10 years ago and it was one of my own pulsating blood vessels that they picked up...so i asked her to be absolutely sure it was a babies HB..."LOOK, its there..look" she said..and there it was smile

Fanbloodytastic! Huuuuuuuuuge congratulations grin

5madthings Wed 27-Jun-12 19:31:01

so pleased he was there with you as well, i am not suprised there were tears! this thread is making me cry blush

the sonographer sounds lovely smile

oiwheresthecoffee Wed 27-Jun-12 19:34:20

Awww. Im so grin for you.

livismum Wed 27-Jun-12 19:34:45

Been checking all day!! Soooooooooo pleased for you both! I had booking in at 8 weeks so get yourself on the phone 1st thing! grin

Yay :-)

porridgelover Wed 27-Jun-12 19:39:07

Oh my. I am SO pleased for you. I was thinking of you during the day.
Will be here for more news as it comes. Best wishes smile

StopTalkingAndEatYourDinner Wed 27-Jun-12 19:39:29

Delighted for you. What lovely, lovely news!

ReportMeNow Wed 27-Jun-12 19:40:37

that's so lovely, you've made me well up

Floggingmolly Wed 27-Jun-12 19:43:49

Delighted for you smile

Been lurking - what lovely, lovely news smile

Sittinginthesun Wed 27-Jun-12 19:48:09

So pleased for you grin. X

tiredteddy Wed 27-Jun-12 19:49:03

Been reading your thread and am very very happy for you! Onwards to the midwife! Yay grin

pullupapew Wed 27-Jun-12 19:49:38

This has just made me smile, I am so very very pleased to hear this wonderful news grin and here's a brew for you while you get your feet up now!

I'm lurking too. Lovely, lovely news.

catinboots Wed 27-Jun-12 19:53:39

Yay!!!!!!

I will have a lovely glass of wine on your behalf wink

Wishing you the happiest and healthiest pregnancy in the world grin

What fantastic news grin

gottohide Wed 27-Jun-12 19:57:27

So happy for you, will be crossing everything and sending lots of positive thoughts your way!

jammyjessica1999 Wed 27-Jun-12 20:00:51

I'm a lurker too! I can't tell you how happy I am for you!! Brilliant brilliant news!

Have a happy healthy pregnancy!! Whoop whoop!! Xxxx

nosleepwithworry Wed 27-Jun-12 20:01:58

Was wondering if willitbe was around and whether or not she tested as she was going to test around about now i think.....I have everything crossed for her.

HUGE HUGE thank you to all of you, for your lovely lovey words of support, for being here with me to hold my hand and for just being so utterly utterly lovely and kind and as excited as i am. It means such allot because i cant tell anyone in RL..DH thinks it will tempt fate.
I LOVE that i can share with you all xxxxxxxxxxxx

dearprudence Wed 27-Jun-12 20:11:13

Congratulations from another lurker x

IawnCont Wed 27-Jun-12 20:13:42

Ah! Brilliant! How many weeks then nosleep?

nosleepwithworry Wed 27-Jun-12 20:14:53

9 on Friday....got some way to go yet till i can completely relaxed.

WhatDreamsMayCome Wed 27-Jun-12 20:21:06

F-A-N-T-A-S-T-I-C!!!!!!!!!!! grin

LadyInPink Wed 27-Jun-12 20:24:18

YAY!! I am so happy for you, that has made my day i have been refreshing your thread all afternoon

It's 8 years to the day that I gave birth to my DD and i too remember the scan that showed a tiny pulsating bean after a m/c.

smile smile smile can't stop smiling for you OP smile smile smile

worrywortisworrying Wed 27-Jun-12 20:26:23

YEAH!!!! I saw this thread in the active convos and my heart was like 'please be good new, please be good news, PLEASE'

SOOO happy for you. you have a lot of virtual support, NoSleep

Will keep up the positive vibes <<<>>>

Jodidi Wed 27-Jun-12 20:29:15

I'm thrilled for you that this is still going well. Here's hoping you continue to have a normal and healthy pregnancy.
Congratulations! xx

LaVitaBellissima Wed 27-Jun-12 20:41:03

thanks huge congratulations grin

minceorotherwise Wed 27-Jun-12 20:41:51

You know what, yes you have a long way to go
But, hey, why the hell not? No reason it should not be your time, your turn
Best of luck!!!

Passmethecrisps Wed 27-Jun-12 20:47:59

I've just read all 10 pages of this in one go. I could barely flick from Tuesday's posts to Wednesday's. Proper tears though.

What an incredible journey all of you are on. Enjoy each and every day

wantingmore Wed 27-Jun-12 20:59:42

thats fantastic news. i am so happy for you.grin

newtonupontheheath Wed 27-Jun-12 21:19:53

Been checking in throughout the day for your update... What fantastic news!!

gringringringrin

Wishing you the very best of luck, you deserve it! grin

WheresMyCow Wed 27-Jun-12 21:22:39

Yippee gringrin had to come on and see if there was an update...couldn't wait until work tomorrow!!!

So pleased for you nosleep, have just told DH why I've come on mumsnet and he's grinning too.

Put your feet up and get plenty of nana naps...oh and have a (((hug))) grin

iloveberries Wed 27-Jun-12 21:36:44

fantastic news! i am so delighted for you smile

neolara Wed 27-Jun-12 21:39:25

Yay! Delighted for you both.

50ShadesOfSaggy Wed 27-Jun-12 21:51:42

Ive just seen this thread in active convos. It has made me cry like a baby! grin
I'm crossing everything for you. X

wizzler Wed 27-Jun-12 22:03:32

Oh congratulations!... have been lurking on here... delighted for you .. now just enjoy every moment of being a normal mum to be...

fengirl1 Wed 27-Jun-12 22:07:57

Yay!!!!! grin

johnnycomelurky Wed 27-Jun-12 22:39:37

Another de-lurking to say congratulations!!!! grin

UnrequitedSkink Wed 27-Jun-12 22:40:10

I've just read this whole thread from beginning to end... tears in my eyes now!! So so happy, will be keeping everything crossed for you x

Thumbwitch Thu 28-Jun-12 00:48:12

So so pleased for you! Seeing/hearing that heartbeat makes up for so much heartache, I found! Everything still crossed for you that it all keeps going well - and yes, start booking to see everyone smile

I won't tell you to relax (I still haven't quite managed to do so at 24w!) but you can start to grin

Just read entire thread, In tears for most of it.

CONGRATULATIONS, I am so so happy for you.

ICutMyFootOnOccamsRazor Thu 28-Jun-12 01:17:11

Just read your whole thread - massive congratulations. It's wonderful.

Haywire Thu 28-Jun-12 12:31:41

woo hoo so happy for you! have followed this thread from the start but have not posted. I am also 9 weeks on Friday, PG after a recent MC. Your good news has given me some hope that this just might work out this time.

hope that you have a happy and uneventful PG nosleep.

tunnocksteacake Thu 28-Jun-12 13:08:57

Message withdrawn at poster's request.

HJBeans Thu 28-Jun-12 19:53:26

grin grin grin

Congratulations and whoop whoop!

HeadsShouldersKneesandToes Thu 28-Jun-12 20:02:20

oh wow I'm so pleased for you!! Wishing you all the best for the next 30ish weeks and may everything go smoothly from here on in.

nosleepwithworry Fri 29-Jun-12 19:02:21

HI!
Ive just unleashed my girls from the torture of a bra, got my PJs on and am curled up on the sofa....lusheousness grin

Had appointment with the councellor lady who has helped me to accept that i would never have another child, and who i have sobbed like a dumbass over my lost pregnancies, poured out the 10 years of desperation and grief to her over the last 2 months.
I told her my news.
She clapped like a loon and cried! bless her!!
She said that from the bottom of her heart, she is genuinely delighter with my news, and that she is not a religious person but she hoped and prayed everything went ok for me!

I think that i have made her day smile
So many lovely lovely people.

Its still like a dream!
happy happy SO HAPPY grin

willitbe Fri 29-Jun-12 20:00:11

nosleep - I am so so so grin happy for you. Enjoy every minute of your wonderful pregnancy. I hope you will keep updating as I am so happy for your dream coming true.

You wondered about me, I am planning to join with being pregnant along side you with my next cycle, I will only be 8 weeks behind you (hopefully she says!)

nosleepwithworry Fri 29-Jun-12 20:09:13

AAAAHHH really! ive got everything crossed for you, everything!

I so hope we can post on the.... whispers>>>>>pregnancy board together shock
My superstitious freaked out anxiety ridden mind wont allow me to go there yet.

Pickthatupplease Fri 29-Jun-12 20:31:11

I've been lurking too. SO happy for you it's brought tears to my eyes. I've had 9 MCs and 4 babies, so anyone else that's going through it, don't lose hope! I've still got the POAS sticks, 10 of them, done on 10 consecutive days at the start of my last pregnancy to see whether the lines are getting stronger!! <mad woman>
Keep us updated for the next 7 months please OP grin

nosleepwithworry Fri 29-Jun-12 20:38:56

ahhh thats SO good to hear Pickthatupplease you give me such hope, 9 mcs & 4 babies, it CAN happen for me cant it, it happened to you xxx thanks xxx
Were your mcs prior to your babies?

LulaPalooza Fri 29-Jun-12 21:17:55

Oh me Oh my Oh WOW! I was reading this thread with my heart in my mouth until your post about the scan, nosleep and then I let out a cheer! So, so pleased for you and DH and I have everything crossed for you.
xxx

Pickthatupplease Fri 29-Jun-12 21:48:21

No, all my MCs were in between babies. First pregnancy gave me DD1 then it all started to go wrong....had the tests, 'unexplained infertility'. I was told by the consultant to take baby aspirin, because although the was no medical reason for into work, it just might help and wouldn't do any harm. So I did but I went on to have 6 more MCs in between 3 more babies, so I think it was just luck. My best advice is drink 2l of water every day.

Everything is crossed for you nosleep grin

nosleepwithworry Fri 29-Jun-12 21:54:33

Im drinking loads of water thanks, off everything else smile

Its just that i have heard this happen to people..in magazines, i cant get over that its happened to me and to you too! It just shows, there is hope when all hope is seemingly lost.

I'm going to change my name to nananaps i think!

flubba Fri 29-Jun-12 22:35:14

Have been lurking (and crying - tears of joy that is of course) and wanted to also tell you I'm knotted up with crossing everything there is to cross, and then some grin

nosleepwithworry Sat 30-Jun-12 07:12:47

ooh oooooh woke up at the crack of a nats ass...for another Shirehorse type wee, when suddenly thought..."when am i due"?

02/02/13 tadaaaaaaaaaaa!!!! grin smile

IwishIwasmoreorganised Sat 30-Jun-12 07:17:23

lovely, lovely, lovely. grin

GrapesAnatomy Sat 30-Jun-12 07:25:18

Aaawww! A due date smile Congratulations!
What a lovely, lovely thread. Your counsellor crying made me cry!

Enjoy those shire horse wees btw because before you know it you'll be dashing to the loo to wee out the equivalent of one teaspoon's worth of wee wink grin

thanks Congratulations again thanks

FriskyBivalves Sat 30-Jun-12 07:31:53

What a lovely due date. Has a beautiful symmetry about it. Do you have an iPhone - there are all manner of countdown/due date apps. Trouble is you will be glued to it for the next eight months or so...

It is all so incredibly exciting.

Well done. 000oooooohhhhhhh and breeeeeeeeathe.

tiddleypompom Sat 30-Jun-12 07:33:10

Another here to send warmest congratulations on your pregnancy - I have followed your thread with heart in mouth and have joined the chorus of cheers when you saw that jumping bean for the first time.

According to my iPhone app, your lo is currently the size of a green olive grin

So very happy for you.

nosleepwithworry Sat 30-Jun-12 07:40:57

A green olive! I have a green olive! That makes it more than an empty sac of nothingness..there is something actually there, yay!!!

glastocat Sat 30-Jun-12 07:46:02

Oh bloody hell sobbing all over my iPad here! grin I 'm not religious so absolutely everything crossed for you!

tiddleypompom Sat 30-Jun-12 08:01:20

You have a prune to look forward to in week 10. I shall gladly update you with regards to fruit/veg sizing on a weekly basis. Just you wait for the butternut squash grin

Mama1980 Sat 30-Jun-12 08:08:24

Oh you made me cry smile I'm so happy for you. Congratulations on your olive! X

GrapesAnatomy Sat 30-Jun-12 08:15:55

LOL! I love the fruit analogies, as I was updating my classroom assistant about the size of the dd she said "GrapesAnatomy, are you having a baby or a fruit salad?" grin

tiddleypompom Sat 30-Jun-12 08:56:37

grin

MrsKwazii Sat 30-Jun-12 16:52:48

This is such a lovely thread - congratulations! grin

nosleepwithworry Mon 02-Jul-12 09:17:40

Today i have booked an appointment with a real live midwife.....feel like i will be wasting her time sad
MUST shake this negative black cloud..must shake it.

Its REALLY happening grin sqeeeeeeeeel!!

OddBoots Mon 02-Jul-12 09:19:32

It's perfectly normal to have some negative feelings, it's how we protect ourselves but I hope you can enjoy the experience too.

Really thrilled for you. smile

SomethingSuitablyWitty Mon 02-Jul-12 09:26:35

So happy for you OP. Everything crossed for a happy easy pregnancy!!

tiddleypompom Mon 02-Jul-12 09:39:10

I have an image of you OP cone next Feb, in labour, apologising to the midwives...

'really sorry....puff....wasting your time....eeeeppp....not actually really properly pregnant no....aaagggghh....happening to someone else yes but not me no.....aaaaaggggghhhhhh....can I push now????'

grin

tiddleypompom Mon 02-Jul-12 09:39:44

*come next Feb

Enjoy your appt smile

LadyInPink Mon 02-Jul-12 12:06:38

How wonderful smile

nosleepwithworry Wed 04-Jul-12 18:16:43

Bit of a wobble today. Woke up with no symptoms, in fact when i thought about it, my symptoms have been diminishing over the last week or so.

So feeling very down, thinking its all over.

But we have a wee scanner machine at work, so i shut myself into a private room, and scanned myself.
WELLLLL, this little jumping bean was all over the shop, little arms and legs waving in the air, as if to say.."here i am, hi there"!!!!

So nice to be reassured. So glad i have this kit there to sneak off and use to just stop me from worrying.

phew grin im a lucky lady smile

AmINearlyThereYet Wed 04-Jul-12 18:39:44

So glad for you; and keeping my fingers crossed. Lovely thread. smile smile

LadyInPink Wed 04-Jul-12 18:55:30

That is amazing news, how lucky for you to have that machine to hand and to actually see your baby jumping around inside you - most surreal I bet grin

5madthings Wed 04-Jul-12 19:31:38

yay at waving arms and legs grin and how great you have the scanner at work to do that, god it that was me i wouldnt be able to help myself, i am a sucker for a baby scan, i would be in there every other day!

tiddleypompom Wed 04-Jul-12 19:34:08

Oooo can I pop over please? Haven't seen my 6 week old bean (well small pea actually) yet. So utterly thrilled for you, and another waving the pom poms along your pregnancy path grin

nosleepwithworry Wed 04-Jul-12 19:40:06

THE most beautiful little arms & legs i have ever seen smile

BTW, have i told you how much i bloody love wagon wheels at the moment? Well i do, they are lush. yumyumyumyum!

Killergerbil Wed 04-Jul-12 20:13:36

So glad its still going well, all our thoughts are with you x

bitbewildered Wed 04-Jul-12 21:14:52

Just read this whole thread. I am so so happy for you. HUGE congratulations to go with your HUGE boobs! Fingers crossed, and will remain so. grin

FarelyKnuts Wed 04-Jul-12 21:29:58

I have been lurking away on this thread hoping like mad for you..so thrilled to come back and find happy bean news. Many congrats grin

IwishIwasmoreorganised Wed 04-Jul-12 21:53:46

Love the little arms and legs waving in the air.

I have a beautiful image in my head grin

tiddleypompom Thu 05-Jul-12 11:13:46

Try a doubledecker. Mmm. Bigger than a wagon wheel too.

wilderumpus Thu 05-Jul-12 16:54:05

hey nosleep just checking in from the ttc after mc board to see you ok and am so delighted to hear about your sneaky scan smile congrats!

mmm wagon wheels...

nosleepwithworry Thu 05-Jul-12 18:33:37

ooh doubledeckers....NEED one of those. I declare that double deckers will be my official craving.

Moaning about not feeling sick yesterday blah blah blah, well let me tell you, its back today, by heck is it back.....YAY!!! grinsmile

Made an appointment with the midwife, so im officially anormal pregnant woman now.
LALALALALAlaaaaaaaaaaaaa smile

FarelyKnuts Thu 05-Jul-12 23:41:57

Bet you have never been so happy to puke and feel rotten wink Good luck with the Midwife x

LadyInPink Fri 06-Jul-12 15:17:01

YAY!! May the sickness continue for a long time to put yourself at ease (I puked the whole pg and never complained cos to me that meant she was healthy) smile

Mmmm really fancy a double decker now...

I truly hope you spew your guts up for a good long while yet to come grin

Sorry but... Y'know smile

nosleepwithworry Fri 06-Jul-12 18:22:38

Had a melt down moment, rushed off to epau.

They said "dont worry, we will squeeze you in now"

Lovely same sonographer (she must just work up there all the time) said "cmon, lets see whats happening......ooh there you go, lovely heart beat and look, the little jelly beans jumpng for you"!!

It was like a huge heavy black blanket had been taken off me.

So now, am begining to get on my own nerves, never mnd anyone elses with this anxiety. I cant seem to just relax.

2 weeks till i get to the magic 12 weeks, then i can breath a bit. Can tackle anything from there.

flubba Fri 06-Jul-12 18:56:14

We will all hold our breath with you.

x

lotsofcheese Fri 06-Jul-12 19:01:32

Big hugs from me: I know the anxiety, worry & stress of being pregnant after m/c & a high risk pregnancy. I was a wreck.

Hang in there; I know how hard it is to remain positive & not whip yourself up into a frenzy.

One day at a time, if you can.

And feel free to offload how you are feeling here - we understand & can support you xxx

tunnocksteacake Fri 06-Jul-12 19:14:39

Message withdrawn at poster's request.

IwishIwasmoreorganised Fri 06-Jul-12 20:52:16

Was the bean still waving?

Lovely to hear that you're feeling so unwell wink

xxx

FarelyKnuts Sat 07-Jul-12 12:20:51

Glad the sonographer could put your mind at ease. It is very hard to be constantly on edge Xxxxxxx Still thinking of you and little bean grin

Mama1980 Sat 07-Jul-12 16:54:03

So happy for you grin long may the sickness continue-sorry grin have you a date for your 12 week scan? Have everything crossed for you. I bled everyday from about 8 weeks with my ds and I totally understand the relentless worry and fear, distraction was the only thing that helped me for awhile reading, Tv box sets etc etc.

nosleepwithworry Sat 07-Jul-12 18:35:03

Im not seeing the midwife for another couple of weeks, will be almost 12 weeks then.
So till i see her, i wont be booked in for 12 week scan, but its fine, i can nip to epau weekly if i want.

todays craving...potato cakes smile also craving a nana nap...

OddBoots Sat 07-Jul-12 18:45:11

It's all sounding so positive, I hope the time feels like it is passing quick enough.

sowaddayasay Sun 08-Jul-12 01:07:01

Hi nosleep just wanted to share my own experience of morning sickness.

Had none with first, lots with my second baby but it was following a pattern: I would have it really bad for one or two days, then it would subside for another two until I would get a day off...and then it would return full steam. So it felt like a 4-5 day cycle, like I was getting a surge of hormones first thing and they would ease off right before the new bout of sickness would start.

It helped me to have something to look forward to when the sickness was really bad ( I think I was around 20 weeks that I stopped feeling awful) and on the other hand, it stopped me from panicking about lack of symptoms!

So happy for you, take it easy and enjoy yourself!

smile

willitbe Sun 08-Jul-12 11:22:08

I am so happy that you are getting so much support from the epau, it is improtant, and good that you have had such reassuring scans too. it is really exciting.

pixiestix Sun 08-Jul-12 11:30:47

Your epau sound fantastic. Very glad your bean was jumping beautifully for you!

TheLastChance Sun 08-Jul-12 12:49:32

I love this tread! So very happy for you nosleep wishing you all the luck in the world grin

Glad every thing is still going well, your posts always make me smile, one thing I would say though is maybe itd be better to see midwife earlier, I know when I booked in there is a really long wait for scan but I think they need to do it by wk13 for measurement purposes, I realise you can have reassurance scans but they don't do the measurement checks do they? Just something to double check on anyway

nosleepwithworry Mon 09-Jul-12 13:27:09

Thanks every one.
Kittykats the earliest i could get was the following day, there was just no way i could leave work at such short notice and let people down. The next available appointment was next Tuesday, that will make me almost 12 weeks (EEEK)

Im not sure of the waiting times for dating scans, but i will push quite hard as the time frame for abnormaility investigations is quite tight, i do not want to mis-time these.

My own fault because i am still having trouble believing that this will be ok, for that reason, i am not rushing things, because it will be less people to trouble and cancel if it all goes tits up.

This metal taste is really awful, dont remember having this before, cant get rid of it, any one else had that?

5madthings Mon 09-Jul-12 13:32:46

oh yes i had the metal taste and i couldnt even cope with the smell of tea/coffe, it made me heave!

glad all is well, you are almost at 12wks! i have a dentist app the day you have a scan/midwife! i know which i would rather be doing!

what is your due date or are you not thinking that far ahead yet?

so pleased all is going well and you ahve a supportive epau smile

50ShadesOfSaggy Mon 09-Jul-12 13:33:41

Off the subject slightly, but I think that this thread should be moved over to pregnancy or antenatal. smile

nosleepwithworry Mon 09-Jul-12 13:40:02

50shades, i absolutely will not go any where near the pregnancy threads because of my freaked out superstitious mind! shock

I got a booklet from my GP's today which i need to fill in before i see the midwife, its all about my history etc but also has a section on birth planning.....OH NO NO NO NOOoooo there will be none of that carry on until i have passed 12 weeks and still have a live jumper in there.

I remember filling that book in before, then bleeding and miscarriage started the very next day...i will fill it in on Monday everning prior to seeing the MW.

Due date i think is around 2-4th Feb. grin

5madthings Mon 09-Jul-12 13:43:12

i can totally understand your superstition, i was always very wary, have had 2 early miscarriages but even without that i was just very wary of planning, buying anything for fear of tempting fate etc, its daft as it really doesnt make any difference, but still it niggled at me (rolls eyes)

good luck for next week, this is such a lovely thread, it fills me with hope, which is such a lovely thing smile

if you have your bean early it can share my bday, 19th jan! smile

tiddleypompom Mon 09-Jul-12 14:31:36

Carry a pack of mints around with you nosleep - there is no erasing of the metal taste, just disguise. Glad all is going swimmingly smile

50ShadesOfSaggy Mon 09-Jul-12 15:07:31

Bless you, I can totally see your point! I didn't think when I wrote my last post! smile
I've got a really good feeling for you though, hang on in there. {{hug}}

tiddleypompom Wed 11-Jul-12 10:06:46

How are you feeling today? Love the due date - long walks with a pram in the spring... Bet you're not allowed to think that far ahead though wink

nosleepwithworry Thu 12-Jul-12 06:44:14

The ONLY thing that takes this horrid metal taste away is galaxy chocolate, i have to suck on a piece continuously grin

Because i am a fat bird to start with, im not sure if my tummy is getting firmer and bigger......or i need a big galaxy poo?

Plus, my legs need shaving and my toe nails need cutting and as i gaze down at both items on the end of my body, i have to consider that i may not get there until next March some time.

Oh dear, that aint pretty.

11 weeks tomorrow..yay!!!!! smile Feeling gooooooooooooooood.

Sittinginthesun Thu 12-Jul-12 06:52:40

grin glad all going well.

I used to freeze grapes, and suck those, to take away the metallic taste. I moved to ice cubes - at one point I was eating 40 a day.

nosleepwithworry Thu 12-Jul-12 17:36:06

grin @ 40 a day!!!

Sittinginthesun Thu 12-Jul-12 18:33:50

I carried a glass of them everywhere. Total addiction! The ones from my work freezer were the best, Burger King the worst...

No sleep am so grin for you I saw the beginning of this thread and had to come back for an update! Congratulations!

FarelyKnuts Thu 12-Jul-12 23:04:45

Hey nosleep.. How are you feeling?

Thinking of you and the wee bean!

nosleepwithworry Fri 13-Jul-12 14:46:11

smile

im good, fat, happy, hairy, toenaily, with huge sore melons looking forward to Tuesday as i've got my first midwife appointment.
Kinda makes it real doesnt it?!

Yay to fat and hairy smile I am now 18 weeks. Got my BFp on the day we were being referred for infertility testing smile

nosleepwithworry Fri 13-Jul-12 15:50:47

YAY Stacey, another lovely lovely story. Does it feel real to you yet??? Can you believe it???

Miracles do happen, you and me are miracles aren't we smile

Sometimes it feels real, others I still feel like I've imagined the whole thing! grin having had a 12 wk scan helps and a 16 wk check where they listen to the heartbeat. Still have some doubting moments but am beginning to get movement so hoping to believe it more soon! Lol

We are indeed, sometimes I think nature just needs a gentle reminder, it's amazing how many women fall pg while being referred for IVF!

RandomMess Fri 13-Jul-12 20:51:19

I love this thread, I keep my eye on it to check all is still well smile

Yes miracles do happen.

nosleepwithworry Fri 13-Jul-12 21:13:21

Ok fruit people......have i progressed from an olive now, what do i have?
A lime/lemon/grape/kiwi?

Kneedeepinshittynappies Fri 13-Jul-12 23:38:13

What a lovely thread!! Sooo happy for you. Having had fertility problems myself and come to the stage of truly believing I would never have a child I know how wonderful/scary it is to finally have your dreams come true. I had tube removed following ep after a long time tTc, finally fell pregnant with ds just as tests being completed, told in addition to my one tube my dh sperm slow after got bfp! Now just had second child born exactly 4 years after my surgery to remove ep.
Your posts have brought real tears to my eyes and I have everything possible crossed that this baby will make it, feb the very best month too (both my little ones feb babies!)

tiddleypompom Sat 14-Jul-12 08:17:22

Week 11? A lime. Week 12 is a plum - most be a v big plum to be bigger than a lime. Perhaps they are bigger in America grin

I love this thread. smile

Very excited for you and your lime. even though in my head a lime is bigger than a plum.

nosleepwithworry Mon 16-Jul-12 11:46:02

So we told ds last night.

Either way he is not stupid, he is 9 and finishes school at the end of this week for summer hols.
He will be around us all of the time.

If this goes ok, he needs to know why i am so anxious and tired etc.
If it doesnt go ok, he will be aware that we are upset, distressed and that i will be in hospital.
I have never told him of any of my previous losses, we have protected him really well, he doesnt know anything.

This time, its later, its more emotional, its very very special. That will impact on him, i know it will.

We just decided it was the best thing to do.

I am very very anxious now about abnormailities, testing and implications.
I stagger from one doom to another gloom and i could kick myself, really i could.

Midwife tomorrow, 12 weeks on Friday, still got glorious symptoms to reassure me.
Impossible to just relax and enjoy sometimes.

nosleepwithworry Mon 16-Jul-12 11:47:05

AND breath........

Good luck with the midwives, when's your 12 wk scan? This is huge for all of you and whatever happens you will face it as a family smile

lotsofcheese Mon 16-Jul-12 12:23:41

Just wanted to say hello & wish you all the best for your appointments this week. I understand how nerve-wracking it is, and being too afraid to be hopeful. Don't be hard in yourself for feeling that way. You've been through a lot.

Hang in there, your midwife will be able to give you some reassurance & hopefully you will be able to relax gradually. Don't expect too much of yourself & take it as easy as you can.

Xxx

nosleepwithworry Mon 16-Jul-12 12:35:25

Im being a twat arent i? Gahhhhh!

No date for 12 week scan, i spose the madwife will book this for me??? Dont know how it all works tbh???

Me and my lime are doing a bit of ironing and attempting to do some work towards MA, doing lots of distraction stuff..

You are NOT being a twat!! Give yourself a break.

Distraction is good.

Depends in your area to how you get your scan appointment, mine was sent through the post but some people I know got given it by their midwife.

5madthings Mon 16-Jul-12 12:57:02

you are so NOT a twat!

yes the midwife will sort your scan for you, then you get it by post but given you are almost 12wks they may just phone up and sort it for you, i had that happen with one of mine as i was almost 12wks when i booked in.

reaches out and holds nosleeps hand, and breathe! xxx

nosleepwithworry Mon 16-Jul-12 13:27:30

Oooh wagon wheels are VERY distracting grin

5madthings Mon 16-Jul-12 14:10:19

but they are sooo much smaller than they used to be!

willitbe Mon 16-Jul-12 17:34:42

Being a twat in your situation is normal and acceptable. With my last ds, I could not accept the pregnancy was going to go ok until he was in my arms! It got a little easier as the weeks went on, but had many many panicky moments. I have managed so far to hide all my m/c's from the children, but my oldest is now 9 and I wonder how I would keep it hidden for very long, so I think that you are wise to fess all to your ds.

Hope that the wagon wheels keep up thier distraction!

nosleepwithworry Mon 16-Jul-12 18:53:58

Hi willitbe...waves frantically xxxxx

I feel justified in my twatishness somewhat!

Ds is not daft, its been difficult at times before, during and after each mc to carry on as normal for his sake. He thinks ive had an "upset tummy" for 5 years lol! blush

As i say, he will need to know either way. This one is very different from the rest. It will impact.

How are you willitbe?

nosleepwithworry Mon 16-Jul-12 18:55:10

oh and yes, wagonwheels are smaller, i have noticed that i run out much quicker than i did as a kid smile

lotsofcheese Mon 16-Jul-12 20:42:15

Hey, and for what it's worth, you're definitely not a twat!! You're a brave & strong woman xxx

You are not a twat. <gavel> <even though I hate the gavel>
I think you are right to explain to your DS. He is of an age where he can cope with an age appropriate chat about what is going on. We know how childrens imaginations can run riot, better to be honest with him.

Wagon wheels are shit now, too small and you can have a jam variety, wrong wrong wrong.

If you and lime need more distractions I have a mountain of ironing here that you could get stuck into grin

Seriously though, I am keeping everything crossed for you. What comes after the lime?

tiddleypompom Tue 17-Jul-12 07:52:29

Plum. I know, it's an odd one. But it's a very large plum.

WheresMyCow Tue 17-Jul-12 08:05:31

Good luck for the midwife appointment today grin

And Wagon Wheels are definitely not as good as they used to be!!

nosleepwithworry Tue 17-Jul-12 09:14:38

i have just started to wear white knickers. In my fuddled anxious brain, black knickers wont show up bleeding as obviously as light coloured. I just cant face that, i just cant.

Today i am utterly convinced that my pregnancy has ended and that the bleeding will start over the next week or so.
I have had a drop in symptoms...this of course equates to miscarriage to us that have experienced multiple miscarriage.

Today is the worst yet, the most anxious i have been up till now. I have cancelled everything today.
I feel like i JUST want to keep going till Friday. Thats 12 weeks, i want to be able to say, i made it to 12 weeks. Even if its all ending, 12 weeks means such alot to me.
Im not even sure its worth going to the midwife today, but she can get me booked in for a scan to confirm sooner.
Im off work, and even though i can go to EPAU im embarrased to show my face there, they will be sick of seeing me.
What was i thinking? I AM a twat, im nearly fucking 42, why would i think that at this age i would grow a healthy baby when i havent been able to do it in my prime over the last 5 years.
I have been physically and mentally so well, now i feel 42, i feel distressed & old.
sad
sad
sad

Jokat Tue 17-Jul-12 09:32:04

Oh please don't panic nosleep, you're bound to start feeling "better" (which in your case means worse) around this time anyway! With both my pregnancies I felt much less sick around the 12 week mark than I did earlier on! And I wouldn't worry about what they think of you at the EPAU, if it keeps you sane then go! And I'm sure they totally understand anyway.
Sending you lots of positive vibes, I'm sure baby is fine xxx

SaggyOldClothCatPuss Tue 17-Jul-12 09:46:34

Like Jokat says, it's normal to start feeling better about now. It doesnt mean anything. Pop down to EPAU for some peace of mind. They see people in your situation every day. You aren't alOne.

drjohnsonscat Tue 17-Jul-12 09:48:00

nosleep you poor thing. This stress is horrible - but hopefully midwife can reassure you today and that will give you enough to go on until you get to the scan. I'd sneak in another trip to EPAU as well - totally understandable.

minceorotherwise Tue 17-Jul-12 09:53:15

Just echoing what people have said. It is normal for symptoms to drop at 12 weeks, absolutely so.
Do not worry about EPAU or anyone else, your baby, you are in charge. If you want to trot down there when you feel worried, then just do it
Do whatever it takes to get you by and well

Just to echo what everyone else said - I felt sick from week 6 to week 12, then it just magically stopped. I think the ligament pains started then. Of course weird random stomach pains aren't going to cheer you up at first glance.

lotsofcheese Tue 17-Jul-12 10:11:13

Big hugs from me! I lost the plot at 11.5 weeks, having kept going with the anxiety for so long.

If you can face a call/trip to EPU that might be best. My 12 week scan wasn't until 13+5, and you don't need any more stress by waiting in case it is later.

Sending you strength to get through the next wee while.

Xxxxx

Ok no sleep its totally understandable given what you've been through to feel like this but you have to pull yourself together ( I don't mean this in a bad or derogatory way) just that 1) your age is nothing to do with it now, like you said it didn't work when you were in your "prime" just like it doesn't for many people mc is a shit thing and can effect all ages 2) you are almost 12 wks, I think the highest age risk for mc is between 6-10 wks which dramatically drops if you've seen a healthy heart beat which you have!!! 3) you had a drop in symptoms before and it was fine, you are a few days of the second trimester which is the bit your surposed to feel better in
I personally wouldn't go to the epu just because you have a midwife app today and you can talk to her about your fears but she will tell you your being silly ( in the nicest possible way) and probably get you your 12 wk scan in the next few days anyway and even though I know its getting to 12 wks that's important to you right now after that you will be just as neurotic and just want to get to 20wks until you have your beautiful healthy little baby in your arms which WILL happen!!!
I think alot of people do the white knicker thing, I know I did!
I don't think the epu would turn you away etc but I presume that after 12wks they may say that they can no longer do it as you are out of the high risk section and you will have to find away of talking yourself round!
I hope you don't think this is the wrong thing of me to say I'm just trying to be logically but that said I've not suffered as much as you and can't begin to understand how it feels, for what it's worth I think you've been very brave and I'm sure the midwife will confirm you ARE fine x

WheresMyCow Tue 17-Jul-12 10:14:48

Still keeping everything crossed for you and I don't think they will be sick of seeing you at EPAU, I'm sure they would much rather you go in for reassurance than not go in.

<holds hands with nosleep>

I think explain to the midwife how important it is to get to 12 wks and ask could they fit you in for your 12wk scan ASAP like a cancelation but on the Friday that way you will see your sticky bean playing away and it is 12 wks or a few days over, before hand it will still be the uncertainty!

nosleepwithworry Tue 17-Jul-12 10:29:47

Ok kittykats that was an arse kicking and a half grinsmile

Just what i needed actually........

While i disagree about the "being silly" comment, i do absolutely get what you are saying and where you are coming from.

Only because usually, i am a very logical and sensible person...normally...usually!
Thsi is very unlike me to be such a loon.

These thoughts are absolutely overwhelming.
I would normally rant a bit at friends, but as they all have their own problems, im kinda on my own with this..and my loony thoughts in my loony head.
Just gotta crack on.

So, floors swept & mopped
wagon wheel break
dishwasher laoded
wagon wheel break
washing machine on
wagone wheel break
hoover coming out
gonna change the bedding..that should take me till 12ish, then nice bath and lunch, then midwife.....she's gonna wonder whats hit her with me isnt she? smile

Sorry no sleep grin
I didn't like the pull yourself together one either but I was struggeling to think of the right words!!
I was trying to do the virtual slap thing only because rather then go along with it may be bad news I wanted you to see its worry plain and simple and I'm sure it's all fine
It's what my mum does to me as believe me I need it to, I'm the biggest worrier of all and I know I sometimes need a hard hand smile
I hope you can see it wasn't ment in a nasty way just a mumsly shake x

nosleepwithworry Tue 17-Jul-12 10:50:06

Not at all!
Please!!!!

My friends would have said precisely what you said! Like i said...just what i needed smilegrin
Should say thanks actually, oh and request a regular logical arse kicking because you and i both know...there are more loonytunes to come!

Oh and the symptoms may have died down but the cravings havnt I see wink
Hopefully I will join you on a loony ward soon and you can return the favour, I was bad before mc I hate to imagine myself after confused

I'll just add that I am wiping my brow with a woosh your ok with it,
You have alot of supporters ( me included) and I was waiting for the kitty bashing!!!

nosleepwithworry Tue 17-Jul-12 10:55:04

Naaa, no kitty bashing to be seen here girl!

smile

oooh does this mean that you too are upduff? Or trying maybe?

Trying!!!! Trying very hard
Took 18+ months to get pg first time with dd, then because of that we decided to go without contraception after as bf and wanted another, got pg first time as soon as stoped bf dd9 months but sadly mc sad I had hoped after the time it took to get pg first time I was due a turn in luck, had one af since and due on -- or hopefully not-- this wkend
It's been a difficult wk with it would have been 20 wks scan and friend announcing pg etc but there are worse of then me too,
If I get pg too I will defo want to pay for an early scan, don't think my epu would let me unless I had a bleed and even though my mum said well you could say you had you should have seen my face shock as if we would do anything to jinx anything bad!!!!!!!!

nosleepwithworry Tue 17-Jul-12 11:11:43

awww you are due a change in luck!
I can sympathise, took me 22 months to get pregnant with my last mc.
Never used any contraception since having ds 9 years ago..took 3 years to get him! (and 2 mcs)

Thats why i am so shock at this pregnancy, didnt even have a period after mc. Normally takes me months.

Thats what makes this such a miracle.
Hoping that your af doesnt arrive at weekend...fingers crossed x

It certainly seems like a little Miracle bean doesn't it,I can understand after all you've been through my ride seems easy but even with a healthy dc ( ive told myself how lucky i am) the want for another particularly after mc just never goes does it, it's all encompassing! I dont know why some of us get felt the hand we get but I like to think its fate and after your story it sounds like she ( I think it's a girl as we are stronger wink) was destined to be conceived against all odds she's clung on in!
I'm also not depressed about it taking me so long first time, we wouldn't have our lovely dd if she wasn't conceived with that egg at that time etc, I just hope she will be lucky enough to get a sibling at some point smile

Last note good luck with midwife- it's not long and after another few weeks you will be able to feel it, exciting!!!
and you can buy things to hear the heartbeat if your anything like me
If you need another shake just shout kitty I need a bashing x

nosleepwithworry Tue 17-Jul-12 11:34:54

Oh no, i never ever think of other peoples struggles as easy or less than mine. mc is mc, devastating if its 1st, 2nd, 3rd or however many.

The reason i went on and on is because i had that overwhelming all encompasing need for a second child. kept thinking "maybe next time".
That was my mantra.

Not brave, just driven i suppose.

I had all the tests for unexplained infertility, then had all the tests for re- occuring mc, all normal. Frustrating and depressing.

I am a big believer in the theory that everything happens for a reason, whatever has happened was meant to be...not fucking fair but meant to happen at that time.

Whatever happens to me, is meant to be, its been such a rush, roller coaster ride and a half.

I totally agree!

nannyof3 Tue 17-Jul-12 12:53:54

I hope everything is ok

nosleepwithworry Tue 17-Jul-12 15:15:15

Midwife visit was........well, just routine really.

I did highlight my anxiety for 12 week scan, need to know here is still a hb there.

She just said i would get a date over the next few weeks.

So thats that. just got to wait.

SaggyOldClothCatPuss Tue 17-Jul-12 15:20:39

Couldnt she have listened for a HB with a doppler today? or is it too early?
If you really feel unhappy, go to EPAU. {{hug}}

nosleepwithworry Tue 17-Jul-12 15:23:24

Dont know about doppler and how soon they can listen in tbh. Spose it depends on the skill of the midwife in finding it, if she hadnt been able to find it, then that would be worse.

Gonna just wait, like normalfolk have to grin

lotsofcheese Tue 17-Jul-12 15:25:09

That doesn't seem very reassuring for you sad

In terms of nuchal translucency, I think the timescale is within 13/14 weeks, so you should be scanned within that timescale. You could even have it now....

It's all & well for people to say not to worry, none of us who have been through it would agree though!

Incaminka Tue 17-Jul-12 15:31:19

Hi nosleep
Just checking in, keeping fingers really crossed for you, hang in there, you are a lot further through than before!
Am back at work and we are trying again. I do have kittens!!! :-)
hugs

xx

nosleepwithworry Tue 17-Jul-12 15:44:02

referred to consultant to.

mw asked about birth plan, i just said i dont want to talk about that, i need to get safely to 12 weeks. She seemed to understand.

lotsofcheese Tue 17-Jul-12 16:14:15

Yes, I remember being asked about that, and breastfeeding at 10 weeks - WTF!!!

Midwives listen for the heartbeat at 16 wks, very few dopplers will pick it up before.

Don't worry too much about birth plan etc, you've got plenty of time. If you haven't heard about a scan date by 13 wks chase it up with your midwifery team/antenatal department at the hospital. A 12 wk scan should be done before 14 wks.

5madthings Tue 17-Jul-12 18:12:28

yes they wont get a heartbeat until nearer 16 wks, i am suprised she is so blase about your scan!

DO go the epu, they will not be sick of seeing you at all! only a few more days and then you are 12 wks! symptoms do come and go and they often start to tail of at 12wks, that is normal. i know it wont stop you worrying tho!

honestly go and have a scan!

<holds hands with nosleep> xxx

nosleepwithworry Tue 17-Jul-12 20:19:04

Going to nip to epau in the morning.

Now i know that i have putting away wagone wheels...like..alot, BUT my trousers are tight and uncomfortable.....think this means either my arse has doubled in size, or my wee plum is growing nicely smile

Jokat Tue 17-Jul-12 21:18:06

Sounds like a good plan, just to settle your nerves. And hooray to the tight trousers! grin

SaggyOldClothCatPuss Tue 17-Jul-12 22:48:21

Tight trousers is a good sign. When I was pg with my second I was wearing maternity trousers at my first scan. I was only 10 weeks!! shock they were loose, but anything else was agony.

minceorotherwise Wed 18-Jul-12 19:05:42

Did you get your scan?
How are you feeling today?

nosleepwithworry Wed 18-Jul-12 19:39:30

ahhh, i nipped off with our little portable scanner at work and did a sneaky scan myself.
It has grown LOADS! i saw the facial profile and it was moving around loads grin

Lots of bouts of nausea today, and my girls are sore.

Wanted to lay my head on the desk at 4ish, but worried because i share an office with the organ donation specialist nurse and think she would whip out a kidney if i look even half asleep!!! smile grin

So i feel like im walking on air today, thrilled and so very happy.

flubba Wed 18-Jul-12 19:41:09

Yay!!!!!!! smile smile smile

5madthings Wed 18-Jul-12 19:41:34

omg how amazing at the facial profile! two more sleeps till 12wks!! grin i cannot imagine how happy you are, i am grinning just reading your post! fabulous smile

RandomMess Wed 18-Jul-12 19:43:00

I just so love your thread x

Yay!!! So pleased for you!!

secretly wish I could self scan, although I do have a Doppler toe thing that tadpole decides to boot whenever I out it on

nosleepwithworry Wed 18-Jul-12 19:44:29

I have a baby...with a nose and everything!!!!!!!

Yay !!!!!!!!!!!!!! So so happy for you x

Bookworm15 Wed 18-Jul-12 19:50:36

Woo hoo just read your thread sending you all the positive vibes i can find !!!

I love this thread grin

5madthings Wed 18-Jul-12 19:55:15

this thread is the best i agree! grin

a nose is it a button nose?! grin

SaggyOldClothCatPuss Wed 18-Jul-12 19:57:50

<<wearing a big smile>>
I love this thread.

I have a baby...with a nose and everything!!!!!!!

Not ashamed to say that actually brought a tear to my eye.

nosleepwithworry Wed 18-Jul-12 20:00:55

twas a sweet little lovely nose and head to match.
a real baby shape, moving and bobbing around.

My boys scans were nearly 10 years ago, i had forgotton how THRILLING scans are because they have always always ALWAYS been distressing and dreaded to me because they always brought me bad news.

I love the comment 'with a nose and everything'

This thread makes me very happy !!

Aw, now I have tears streaming down my face. How wonderful for you smile

minceorotherwise Wed 18-Jul-12 20:23:24

Ooh a little wriggler
Fab

TigerFeet Wed 18-Jul-12 20:37:53

Oh how lovely, good luck with the rest of the pregnancy smile

This is the best thread smile

iloveberries Wed 18-Jul-12 20:41:19

So pleased for you

You give me hope and that is amazing x

tiddleypompom Wed 18-Jul-12 20:48:48

Glad the plum can smell smile Well done you - wonderful happy life affirming news.

Enjoy those lovely memories and give that belly a pat from all your followers!

lotsofcheese Wed 18-Jul-12 21:22:36

gringringringringringringrin
That's just brilliant! Have a wee think about a "making it to 12 weeks" celebration - wagon wheels all round!!! Xxx

grin

have been lurking and can contain mself no longer
Congratulations thanks

nosleepwithworry Wed 18-Jul-12 21:29:44

smile just smile

you are all wonderfull and lovely and your well wishes, advice & kindness makes me warm in my tummy xxxxxxxxxx

Oooh - yay :D

5madthings Wed 18-Jul-12 21:31:56

that warm feeling in your tummy is also the bean who is your very own internal central heating device!

you are lovely to share your journey with us, i shall be following the whole way through! smile

ButtonButton Wed 18-Jul-12 22:14:39

I've been lurking too. Sitting here weeping quietly, so pleased for you.

Wonderful, So pleased for you, this little one is here for the duration!!!
You can start shopping now!!!!!
Just think your next scan you will be like a proper 2 nd trimesterer at like 13wks with a pomegranate or such like grin
Now step away from those scanners!! wink

Thelobsterswife Wed 18-Jul-12 22:30:08

Another lurker with a big smile on my face because of your news!

LadyInPink Wed 18-Jul-12 22:34:49

So, so happy for you nosleep i can hardly wipe the grin off my face!!

MarmMummy Wed 18-Jul-12 22:50:42

Yay!!! gringringrin

Been reading with a lump in my throat and so so pleased for you

Aweeee I have never sobbed and bawled as much in my life!

Congratulations and big big hugs xx

MildredIsMyAlterEgo Wed 18-Jul-12 23:19:14

Hurrah for your baby's tiny little wee nose grin

goingundertheradar Thu 19-Jul-12 00:02:38

So pleased for you x

Mama1980 Thu 19-Jul-12 07:33:16

Oh you've made me cry smile hurray for gorgeous babe with nose and everything! I'm so happy for you x

Hi nosleep I wanted to say congratulations too. smile

Killergerbil Thu 19-Jul-12 09:19:11

Hurrah! With you every step xx

5madthings Thu 19-Jul-12 09:31:44

one more sleep! so excited for you, i agree this thread is great, its full of hope and a brings a smile to my face as well as tears smile

so wagon wheels all round tomorrow then?!

drjohnsonscat Thu 19-Jul-12 09:58:26

how brilliant! Are you not just tempted to stuff that portable scanner up your jumper and walk out with it?

<go on, nick it>

crikeybill Thu 19-Jul-12 10:52:57

I'm also lurking....hello !!
I'm so excited for you !! I hope you continue this thread till the end.
Oh I wish you so much luck x x
I'm so, so, happy for you !!!!

nosleepwithworry Thu 19-Jul-12 19:36:11

Ok so waggon wheels are nice by OMG discovered rocky road today.

So

i now declare my new craving to be...rocky road grin

nosleepwithworry Thu 19-Jul-12 19:37:28

started my theft career with the small stuff...stole a rocky road, will work up to the £23k scanner gringrin

tiddleypompom Thu 19-Jul-12 21:17:30

Nice. Am on the wotsits myself.

Are you 13 weeks yet? Waiting to reveal the next fruity update...

nosleepwithworry Fri 20-Jul-12 06:31:25

12 weeks
12 weeks
12 weeks

12 weeks
12 weeks
12 weeks

12 weeeeeeeeeeeeeks!!!!!
grin
grin
grin

Bearandcub Fri 20-Jul-12 06:35:58

Congratulations nosleep!!!

I'm thrilled for you. Just had a few blubs of happiness at your post.

IfElephantsWoreTrousers Fri 20-Jul-12 06:45:19

Huge congrats for getting through the 1st trimester - really hugely happy for you!

saffronwblue Fri 20-Jul-12 06:47:18

Have been lurking on this thread and thinking of you - Congratulations!

YAY!!!!!!

Mr Bunny wishes you a very happy 12 weeks!!

( )_( )
(='.'=)
(")_(")

grin

movelikejagger Fri 20-Jul-12 07:27:44

Yay Yay - I love that you nipped off with the portable scanner.

Sending you a mountain of rocky roads to devour.
smile

Mama1980 Fri 20-Jul-12 07:27:47

Yay!!grin

WheresMyCow Fri 20-Jul-12 07:54:32

12 weeks...Yippee!! gringringrin

So pleased for you. So glad you had a sneek off with the portable scanner and saw your nosey little plum wriggling around grin

lotsofcheese Fri 20-Jul-12 08:24:49

Happy 12 weeks!!! gringringringringrin Congratulations!!

Here's to a celebratory wagon wheel/ rocky road - or 10!!!

Xxxxxxx

Congratulations nosleep. That's wonderful.

5madthings Fri 20-Jul-12 08:44:34

this is the first thread i came to this morning! HAPPY 12 WEEKS!!! grin

how is dh feeling now?

chuffed for you smile

SomethingSuitablyWitty Fri 20-Jul-12 08:55:23

Congratulations! Happy 12 weeks!

I can't believe there is a portable scanner at work that you can nab for a sneaky scan. That's hilarious. I would have been unstoppable with that kind of access.

Hope it's all plain sailing from here! Wishing you all the best thanks

Happy 12 weeks! grin grin grin

Jokat Fri 20-Jul-12 14:22:06

That's just amazing! So have you got a scan date yet? And will your husband be able to come with you for that?

nosleepwithworry Fri 20-Jul-12 15:30:34

Scan next Tuesday afternoon!

Going to meet with the abnormalitles expert midwife who will talk me through the amnio after the dating scan, and she will probably give me a date for that too.

Ive started to tell people in rl, all but one of them have given me huge gugs, shed a wee tear and said they are fantastically chuffed for us.

One friend of 25 years rolled her eyes and said "oh no, not this again" then proceeded to ask me if i planned on getting the tablets (abortion pills) or on having a D&C this time.
She has been with me through all of my mcs, sat with me hour after hour in hospital when dh couldnt be there becuase we have no one to look after ds.
She got me good painkillers when in severe pain and desperately desperately sad and distressed and has been a wondeful support. (She is aspergers so doesnt get it, hence the frank questions btw)

Apart from that....everyone so far has been thrilled for us. grin

nosleepwithworry Fri 20-Jul-12 15:31:50

HUGS gahhhhh

SaggyOldClothCatPuss Fri 20-Jul-12 15:35:45

I'm <<SQUEEEEE>> for you. grin

Oh lucky u, a scan date!!!! Yay!!

Glad people are happy for you, you have a lot of us here regularly in tears with happiness smile

(I have my 20 wk scan fri and am almost more excited for you lol)

MavisGrind Fri 20-Jul-12 16:52:44

Another one coming out of lurkdom, congratulations!

Wishing you all the best from the Grind household.