Sorry, this is going to be long!!! But DH doesn't get it and I don't want to talk to anyone else in RL about it...
Bit of background - since having DC2 (almost 6 years ago) Dh and I have had ongoing talks about having a third. We could never really make up our minds but never completely discarded the idea. Then last Dec we found out we were expecting (unplanned but were not being very careful). Great timing as we had lots of friends who were expecting, and his brother's wife found she was pg a week before. So, scary to start again but nice to have lots of company.
We lost the baby at 10 weeks - it had stopped developing at 6w. Went through natural M/C process at home and periods have been normal ever since. So nothing to stop us trying agin, right? Except that losing the baby got us talking very, very seriously about what we want, and we decided that (for practical reasons) it was time to forget the whole third child thing once and for all and get on with our lives and lovely DD and DS.
Except its much harder than I thought it would be. Just this year alone 5 good friends and a cousin have had babies, besides 2 other friends, one more cousin and sil who are all expecting. My brother and his wife are talking about trying and I have 2 other friends who are trying. And now my only other sil (Dh's other brother) has told us she is expecting her third.
DH says if I really want a third we can try, but its not that, I think we made a decision for a good reason, its just that I would be half way through pregnancy right now if it hadn't been for the M/C and every time I hear someone else is pregnant I start to cry. I feel so stupid for it! Its just so hard at times when theres a baby boom going on around here and I have to be so happy for everyone else.
I know the obvious answer is try for another or just get on with life, but some days its just not easy, thats all.
Thanks for reading if you made it this far and sorry for all the self-pitying waffle, I just really needed to get this off my chest.
Please or to access all these features
Please
or
to access all these features
Find support and share your experiences on our Miscarriage forum.
Miscarriage/pregnancy loss
Mind made up re trying again but still sad about it
8 replies
Geocentric · 19/05/2010 14:48
OP posts:
Loopymumsy ·
19/05/2010 15:08
This reply has been deleted
Message withdrawn
Loopymumsy ·
19/05/2010 16:22
This reply has been deleted
Message withdrawn
Please create an account
To comment on this thread you need to create a Mumsnet account.