So after years of trying and MC's we are having our 12 week scan tomorrow.
We have had private scans every week and doplar every day and everything is fine but we have never had a baby this size all of out MC's have been at 7-10 weeks.
We are so nervous I cant work, I can think of nothing else. For years we have tried to get here and every time is been bad news at the 12 week scan.
Tomorrow morning at 9:10 we have to go back into the same room were time after time they said sorry there is no heartbeat and I cannot focus on anything else. Right now this dream seems real and tomorrow it could all blow up in my face again. Im dreading it so much and ma in tears as I right this. I could hear the heartbeat this morning on the dopplar at 156 which is perfect and had a scan last week which was fine but none of that reassures me in the slightest. This NHS scan is the big one and The fact that after all these year I might be finally able to tell my parents & friends that I am having a baby (they know nothing about the MC's) is an amazing concept but then I hate myself for thinking like that as I know that there maybe no heartbeat.
I don't know what anyone can say to help reassure me. I know there is only a 2% chance of a MC now but that is a stat that I have lost on before and so means nothing to me.
Right now the dream is alive and in 20 hours that dream could well be dead again and I don't know if I have the strength to go through another MC I really don't. Im so tired and exhausted booth physically and mentally I just want to lay down and give up but I know I need to be this pillar of strength of my wife and so Ill just suck it up, have a cup o Tea and crack on.
anyone who read this please throw up a little prayer to whatever god you believe in and keep your fingers crossed for us because I really need it to work this time.
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randomuser64746 · 19/05/2016 15:18
oh op - my fingers are so tightly crossed for you they hurt 
As someone who has been through a similar thing, I'm keeping everything crossed for you. Good luck 
Keeping everything crossed and please come back and show us your healthy scan pic tomorrow 
I was a wreck going for my scan after just one previous mmc, so I can't imagine your nerves, but as hard as it is, try not to let the nerves overshadow the special moment.
And I really hope you can relax tonight and sleep well xx
My goodness. My heart goes out to you. You sound amazingly strong. Wishing you all the luck in the world for tomorrow.
Stay strong, OP. I had a miscarriage last year. The baby currently attached to my boob was born a year to the day after we had that miscarriage. He's my little miracle.
Can you put some inane tv on?
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