TTC after mc with absent periods

[Maple14]

Writing on here because I really just need to write everything down.

After TTC for 18 months, struggling with absent periods after the pill, I got pregnant in Oct-15. Sadly at 9 weeks I had a mc, the week before xmas. I know it’s common and I know it’s just one of those things. But now I feel lost. I have got over the actual mc but am back to the ongoing stress of will I ovulate again and when.

I had been due to start treatment (provera/clomid) just when we discovered I was pregnant. I know I will have to wait a while now before going down that route. It’s a waiting game and I do not feel strong enough to cope with it all again.

I feel like I have no one to talk to now. Initially a few friends were very supportive about the mc but that was 8 weeks ago and no one has asked how I am for a while. DH has been amazing throughout the mc but now feels that I need to be more positive about TTC again. He wants us to just see what happens over the next few months and stop stressing. I can’t though. I get through the working day ok then cry in the car on the way home. I smile happily as my friends talk of their surprise pregnancies, but inside I am angry and upset. I am turning into one of those bitter childless women. I feel like I need a plan of attack but ovulation tests do not work when you have no ‘cycle’ to track. What can I do to focus my attentions on something positive?!