Hello everyone - I joined mumsnet when I found out I was pregnant with my first child in October 15. Reading all of the stories made me super excited! What an excellent platform for mums to express themselves on
The sad news came at our 1st scan on 04.12.15, where I would have been 12+4. Our little bean had stopped growing at 8+6 and no heartbeat detected. The only way I could describe it all was quite literally the purest form of sadness I have ever felt. I have lost very close people to me along the way, but this feeling was like nothing I had ever felt before .
So.... I had the D&C 07.12.15. All went as well as it could have gone given the circumstances. TMI: I had quite a bit of bleeding an hour or so afterwards but could go to the loo fine, so was allowed home.
I had quite bad stomach cramps for the next 3 days with spotting but seemed to be on the mend physically. I did have quite bad backache immediately after the op but put it down to the stress of it all.
This back pain has continued to this day??
In January I had a very light 3 day cycle - 07 to 09.01.16. The week after I had quote a strange gloop of beige/brown lumpy thing along with stretchy/egg white d/c. Looked it up and it seems to be the lining of my cervix that hadn't broken down properly during a normal cycle. Never had this before but seemed 'normal' after such a trauma.
During the month of January - every 3 or so days, I would get this really sharp pain in my right side. I do feel when ovulating but it seemed sharper than usual. And also, because it was happening so often I was concerned - as you only ovulate once a month!
Went to my GP who had a feel around and said that all seemed ok and my body was still healing.
We are now on 05.02.16 (day 30 of cycle) and I am usually every 27days. I have no signs of my period starting and had another, much smaller little beige/brown gloopy thing today.
Did anyone else have a longer waiting time from 1st to 2nd cycle after miscarriage?
My heart is still struggling with this loss and I find myself feeling on the edge and having little breakdowns each week. Feeling completely overwhelmed with life in general. This is extremely out of character for me as I love to laugh and feel happy. I've had a lot happen over the last 5yrs and managed just fine. The odd cry here and there but generally just got on with things.
I went back to work the week after the miscarriage as I wanted to try and get back to 'normal'. It did help and work were very understanding, but I do think I put myself under too much pressure to get back to the way things were before the pregnancy. So hard to have planned your life around this new little amazing thing then in the space of a 15minute scan, everything is different again... in the most devastating way. Not sure when this sadness will get easier, but I am now doing things in my own time. I would advise anyone going through the same to just take things easy and don't try to live how others expect you to.
Sorry for the long winded story! But maybe this will help someone in the same position as me so you don't feel alone in any way.
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My miscarriage ......the physical and mental after effects
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beanmckean · 05/02/2016 12:28
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