Empty sac at 9 weeks

[Moxiechick]

I'm supposedly 9 weeks pregnant and had some light pink bleeding today so went to the epu and they sent me for a scan.
The scan showed an empty sac with no baby. The doctor said that either meant I was earlier than I thought or that I was having a miscarriage.
This baby was the result of a one night stand but very much wanted by myself. I keep playing in my head the moment the baby's father told me he wished the baby died.
I'm devestated and not one person feels the same way about my baby. I feel so alone.
The thing that's confusing me is how could I be early? I've only had sex once in a loooong time.
My last period began 31st aug and I had sex on 12th September.
Could I be earlier?
Or do I need to face facts that I've lost my baby. I have to wait 2 weeks for a scan.

[hellonicetomeetyou]

Hi, I'm really sorry you are going through this alone. How are things today?

The 2 week wait is difficult. I think its so easy for dates/size to be a little out in the early stages and thus the 2 weeks between scans is standard. It sounds like you are very sure of your dates. I do hope that things work out well for you but while no one can tell you for certain I think sadly you need to be prepared that the outcome may not be good.

Were you given any advice about if you do start bleeding more? Is there a friend you could talk to or lean on?

I have been with my husband 15 years but I still found miscarrying a lonely experience. I think the experience of carrying your baby means that no matter what the father's feelings, no one feels like you do about it. Its lonely but you really are not alone. There are many here who know how worried you feel.

[Moxiechick]

Thank you for your support.
I'm feeling very up and down, have to keep hiding in the bathroom to cry as I have my 2 year old at home, then painting a smile on my face and pretending everything's ok.
I have friends nearby but I can't face seeing anyone right now.
I've spoken to my mum on the phone but she keeps saying if it's a miscarriage it wasn't meant to be. I know she's just trying to comfort me but I just wanna shout 'It was meant to be.'

[hellonicetomeetyou]

Yes, people often say the wrong thing when you just need someone to acknowledge how rubbish the situation is.

Its tough having to put a brave face on.