Hi,
I've stage 4 endometriosis and adenomyosis. Been through 4 ops and a number of treatments. A few months ago we were told I needed surgery again and this time there would be a risk of hysterectomy. So we came off birth control (even though this isn't a good idea for me healthwise) because we needed to at least try. We were told if we weren't pregnant in four months we'd begin tests/ivf process so were completely focused this. As far as we knew pregnancy was unlikely, partially as we can't have sex often as it causes me pain.
We found out I was pregnant 2 weeks ago, after 1 month of 'trying', and I miscarried 1 week ago (5weeks). I am giving myself a hard time about it, I hadn't had periods in two years as was put on hormone injections/pill back to back so I attributed any pregnancy symptoms ie. Bloating/pain/nausea to endo stuff because to be frank I am really used to it. I am analysing everything I did and didn't do because I didn't think we had a chance of becoming pregnant ie. Having a few glasses of wine on my bday, eating parma ham, going in a sauna etc.
On the plus side we are amazed it happened at all and it does give us some hope. However when we found out it was like six years of hell were lifted off our shoulders, we felt free and happier than we ever have been, we loved the baby so much.
I have no idea what is normal for early miscarriage, I bled heavily for a few days and then it tailed off, I was also nauseous. Now I'm just tired, emotions have hit and having some pain too.
We were in a department store today to leave back a wedding gift that was damaged. Several other couples who were also married last year where waiting in line ahead of us, most heavily pregnant. The couple in front were having twins gushing about it. My husband and I had to turn our backs and the pain was written over both of our faces. It's so hard to go through so much and not be able to get well just because we have no kids (I need a hysterectomy to get better but docs won't sign off on it because I'm so young and no babies). When you see someone handed 2 children on a silver platter when you're enduring hell it's a real kick in the teeth. What has been comforting is my husband has exactly the same feelings as me and we've never been closer.
I don't feel ready to try again straight away as, maybe this sounds odd as I was so early, I really miss the baby and physically feel awful. I don't know what's normal to feel and I'm really frightened about it happening again.
If you have any advice it would really help me. Thanks ladies xxx
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Robinni · 26/07/2015 19:08
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